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TooConscious
Enlightened
- Sep 16, 2020
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A lot of people are now waking up to the likelihood we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively.
But I wonder in such a state of existence how anything can be positive and not delve into anguish and despair as soon as one develops independent thinking.
Some are wanting to ascend
But no matter the state of being I don't see what extra senses that I can't see, surely as deep, more colorful and the strong the vibration makes it a complex hell.
Also how are people THANKFUL and full of GRATITUDE for being alive and conscious.
They feel debt to whatever they feel created them, or the circumstances that made them exist.
Theres people will attack me because they think I am bad mouthing God and if they say "shut up and worship or you go to hell" that that means they're kept in God's good books.
I understand if you like life then you may be thankful but also whatever creates is clearly sadistic beyond imagination and language
Its basically created you as a slave even if you're treated well.
The world has a mix of everything it seems, but not these couple of ideas that you hardly hear anywhere...
And in my experience whatever isnt thrown in your face usually has a lot of substance.
My experience leads me to seething hatred I cannot address...
That I am in a position that I don't know if my suffering will end because murdering my body may send my consciousness to another realm, and I lose the only thoughts that give me comfort.
Due to bizarre spiritual occurrences I do not believe we see much more than the equivalent of drop in a glass to what's actually effecting our state.
I am likely at the mercy of what I don't understand.
Somethings or all of whatever can influence wants (God or God's) want me to suffer, a Cosmic joke.
And I will be the anomaly that survives a train running over my skull, crushing in such a way that I will be kept alive by machine seconds seem a thousand years.
We have technology surrounding us now that is even verging on bringing back constructs of people of the pasts consciousness through dna. ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE IN ANY WORLD.
if existence is fair and when you don't want to exist you go and never come back, it is unfathomably cruel that a human being is burdened with such thoughts.
I despise existence that I don't know what to do. Because there's nothing I can do but sit and suffer in the trap, or take a chance in death, which I feel is just the equivalent of walking into God's next hellhole trap.
But I wonder in such a state of existence how anything can be positive and not delve into anguish and despair as soon as one develops independent thinking.
Some are wanting to ascend
But no matter the state of being I don't see what extra senses that I can't see, surely as deep, more colorful and the strong the vibration makes it a complex hell.
Also how are people THANKFUL and full of GRATITUDE for being alive and conscious.
They feel debt to whatever they feel created them, or the circumstances that made them exist.
Theres people will attack me because they think I am bad mouthing God and if they say "shut up and worship or you go to hell" that that means they're kept in God's good books.
I understand if you like life then you may be thankful but also whatever creates is clearly sadistic beyond imagination and language
Its basically created you as a slave even if you're treated well.
The world has a mix of everything it seems, but not these couple of ideas that you hardly hear anywhere...
And in my experience whatever isnt thrown in your face usually has a lot of substance.
My experience leads me to seething hatred I cannot address...
That I am in a position that I don't know if my suffering will end because murdering my body may send my consciousness to another realm, and I lose the only thoughts that give me comfort.
Due to bizarre spiritual occurrences I do not believe we see much more than the equivalent of drop in a glass to what's actually effecting our state.
I am likely at the mercy of what I don't understand.
Somethings or all of whatever can influence wants (God or God's) want me to suffer, a Cosmic joke.
And I will be the anomaly that survives a train running over my skull, crushing in such a way that I will be kept alive by machine seconds seem a thousand years.
We have technology surrounding us now that is even verging on bringing back constructs of people of the pasts consciousness through dna. ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE IN ANY WORLD.
if existence is fair and when you don't want to exist you go and never come back, it is unfathomably cruel that a human being is burdened with such thoughts.
I despise existence that I don't know what to do. Because there's nothing I can do but sit and suffer in the trap, or take a chance in death, which I feel is just the equivalent of walking into God's next hellhole trap.
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