Why is it so hard to let it go?

[Journeytoletgo]

I been through enough bs
Bullying
Heartbreak
Assault
Religious trauma
Colorism
Neglect
Mothers death
Two car accidents
Alcoholism
Antidepressants
Accutane
Depression

 

[Of The Universe]

What's colorism?

 

[Journeytoletgo]

What's colorism?

In my community we have colorism. Where lighter skinned woman are favored over dark skinned woman

 

[Chasing Sleep]

I been through enough bs
Bullying
Heartbreak
Assault
Religious trauma
Colorism
Neglect

I understand completely. Been through so much pain and yet I couldn't go through with my last attempt. It's so hard. Sorry you're going through this. Religious trauma is hell.

 

[Someone123]

In my community we have colorism. Where lighter skinned woman are favored over dark skinned woman

Honestly this even happens for some black people in the u.s.- people who are much darker black are often looked down on by lighter skinned black people- I've seen some black comedians talking about this.

I been through enough bs
Bullying
Heartbreak
Assault
Religious trauma
Colorism
Neglect

I think you posted that you had a recent sn attempt where you stopped due to the pain being 4 out of 10- I really hope I can push through that when i try sn. I do wonder if it was the pain level or the SI or the combination that stopped you- it seems like maybe it was mainly the SI.

 

[Al Cappella]

I'm not sure, but it may have something to to with the fact that the drive to survive is the strongest one you've got…

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm not sure, but it may have something to to with the fact that the drive to survive is the strongest one you've got…

This freaking sucks

 

[Al Cappella]

This freaking sucks

Yes, it does…

 

[Someone123]

I'm not sure, but it may have something to to with the fact that the drive to survive is the strongest one you've got…

I do have a belief that after this life there is most likely a much better life, though I am not comletely certain- I am hoping that looking forward to that, and looking forward to leaving problems behind here, can help me to push through.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that it is difficult to let go of this life because after all, this existence is all we know. We cannot comprehend what it is like to not exist. I agree with the user who mentioned the survival instinct, as even know we want to die, we are all programmed to survive. I am sorry for all the pain you have been through, I know that it is awful not wanting to exist, yet feeling as though you are trapped in this world. I wish that I could just let go of this life and sleep for all eternity but it is just so hard to leave this world. I wish you the best in whatever happens.