I kinda felt like giving life another chance but everything almost seems to be pushing me to do it. I guess some people are destined to play only the side roles like in a movie, never the lead, and i am one of them, you know, i dont have any purpose of my own, i just serve the role of a person in other people's story. Please dont comment saying that i am thinking wrongly. It is what it is. I am at my mom's family place rn, will ctb when i get home. Fuck this shit.
Giraffey
Your Orange Crush
- Mar 7, 2020
- 439
This is exactly how I feel Harleyyy, I literally just made a thread on the same topic. I don't have any real words of comfort, wisdom or advice beyond saying that in many ways I can understand your pain. I wish I had something deeper I could say. You know, I work in movies and I know all too well that it's us 'behind the scenes' people who are the first to arrive and last to leave, we barely ever sit down and almost never get the thanks and appreciation of the stars whose limelight we work so hard to create and uphold. It's an analogy that translates well into life I think.
Some people are perfectly content to live solely for others, in some cultures, it's a glamorous prospect - a life devoted to the service of others, be they a god or just our family. But that decision should be our choice and those of us who need more from life to be fulfilled don't deserve to be stuck in the kind of purgatorial stasis in which we seemingly find ourselves unable to escape.
Sending virtual hugs.
Why indeed. Good question. I have no answer. I get that feeling though, of trying one last time and getting kicked in the teeth everytime. Of being someone elses NPC in they're own 'game'. Often using you just to get ahead in the game, then I'm just disposable. I think life is just an eternal struggle, some people can deal with it and others can't, I'm part of the latter group
Similar threads
Suicide Discussion
DeadManLiving
