Why is it always the little things?

[Carlotta16]

My boss at work has been really good with how I've been feeling lately and has spent time talking to me and trying to help me. I asked him if I could have a chat with him on Wednesday at work. He came to me just before he left and asked if he could speak to me the next day. That's fine I understand he is really busy. But yesterday came and went and he didn't have a chat with me. Now the rational part of my brain knows that it's
Probably because he was busy, but the 'irrational' part of my brain sees it as just one more rejection from someone. I've had so many rejections lately that is has really hit me hard. Why is that side of the brain so strong? Why can't I look at it rationally? Why do I automatically see It as a huge negative and rejection? I hate my brain so much. Is it one more person who I thought would be there and help me only for them to reject me aswell?

 

[GetMeOut]

Do you have BPD? I do, and even perceived rejection is crushing.

 

[Carlotta16]

Do you have BPD? I do, and even perceived rejection is crushing.

I honestly don't know. I've never been diagnosed with anything but depression. But every 'therapist' I have has either walked away or sed they don't know how to help me. So I don't actually know what you would class it as that I have

 

[GetMeOut]

I honestly don't know. I've never been diagnosed with anything but depression. But every 'therapist' I have has either walked away or sed they don't know how to help me. So I don't actually know what you would class it as that I have

Ooooh, therapists walking away is another sign of BPD, because it's virtually untreatable. Positive therapy outcomes are limited. "Screen out the borderlines" is advice that's sometimes given to budding MH professionals, to ensure a successful practice.

Take a look at the typical BPD symptoms, just google them. No formal diagnosis doesn't mean, of course, that you don't have it!

 

[FuneralCry]

People can be very disappointing and unreliable and that is simply the way that many people are. Living can be very painful as our thoughts can torture us and I'm sorry that you suffer so much. This life is just so unfair.