Not if its a "recreational" amount
You wouldn't have a threat of customs or dark web, its easily obtainable from the street. If you've never done it before the amount required to kill you would just be the same amount a regular user would take for an "extra" good time, so it wouldn't be that questionable. However I guess this is why its not often discussed, there seems to be a lot of negativity about it
Yeah but if you get caught with it, there will always be that negative stigma attached to you. In their eyes, you will just be seen as a junkie who wants to get high all the time and cost them tax dollars. They will associate you with those homeless junkies who break into people's houses, steal their shit for drug money and then take a dump in their kitchen sink and then piss all over the floor. Someone who will never be a productive member of society. If you are caught with N, you will just be seen as someone trying to commit suicide and a mentally ill person. Someone who can be treated with medication or Yoga or some other BS. LOL Not someone who is a junkie because why would anyone want to be an N junkie? LOL And I think, deep down inside, most people don't even see suicide as a bad thing. In fact, I think most people think committing suicide is the right thing for someone to do, if he or she failed at life, because A) you are doing them a favor because they'd rather have people like you(the weak in their eyes) dead, anyway. And B) in your shoes, they would probably commit suicide as well. But they don't want to look like a "monster", so they just pretend to be someone who is against suicide. Because most people are sociopaths in this world. So in other words, they don't give a shit about anything that doesn't affect them negatively. In their eyes, it's just one more useless person, purged from existence from their point of view. And they might even respect you for committing suicide. Because, really. That does take some discipline and courage. And it shows that you have the type of character to kill yourself instead of living life a failure. I know, because most of life I was surrounded by sociopaths and they really don''t give a shit if someone commits suicide. They are just not vocal about it, for obvious reasons. I think the only people who are constantly raging about suicide are people who are pissed off that someone in their family committed suicide and their suicide has affected them in a negative way. For example, if you have a child and he or she commits suicide. That is going to make you look like a horrible parent. And also, a lot of people who see their children as nothing more than insurance, basically. For example, a mother raging at people like us for thinking there is nothing wrong with suicide, just might be trying to unleash vengeance upon us because she planned to use her son or a daughter as a slave who will take of her ass when she is really old. Nobody wants to be without anyone who doesn't give a shit about him or her, while they are slowly dying of old age. They are going to need someone to change their diapers and ensure the people who work at the nursing homes, aren't beating the shit out of them on a daily basis. So I think a lot of backlash from people like us is due to people, losing their investment and not being compensated. And people being under the threat of having be seen as terrible parents. There is also the people who have had to deal with a parent committing suicide and that is basically being abandoned by a parent, something that very traumatizing. They don't really know what many years of a shitty life can do to someone... So they will think, well if he or she just got help...my father or mother would be alive today. And of course, they will see people like us as evil...
