here is the story of why i'm suicidal. the first time i had suicidal thoughts was in eighth grade. i let my grades slip and felt like an utter waste of space and a failure. i have friends, but not that many. then, in 9th, i had them on and off the entire year. it just kept getting worse. now, i am actively suicidal. i've been picked on all my life. i've been lazy and dumb my whole life. i've done things i massively regret. i lie and have stolen. i worry that a significant portion of my youth was robbed from me due to mental illness. i am currently diagnosed with adjustment disorder. i have been a dissappointment my entire life, and if i do not kill myself, i will only continue. as i am writing this, i am thinking about how bad of a person i truly am. the people on this site make me feel like i'm not a bad person, and that my emotions matter. we may be a bunch of suicidal people with mental illnesses, but some of the nicest people i have ever met are on this site. thank you for reading.
Public school if that's where u have had to be will make u suicidal and feel like a failure.
yep. despise public school with all of my being.
@ganpres37 ive been diagnosed with adjustment disorder too. Some mental health people ive dealt with dont even know what it is really. Apparently its onset is within 3 months of change and lasts no longet than 6 or it can lead to severe depression. Treatments so far are just psychotherapy. I feel like yeah maybe it is that and a dissociative disorder of some kind. I can feel my mind breaking around me and its scares me
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