Venting Why i'm not an organ donor

[Meretlein]

Ok so my main reason for CTB is a stay at a psych ward when I was 17 . It ruined my life completely, more than your typical forced confinement. I see so many people supporting what was done to me and I just hate them. I feel white hot rage at some of my family and all the people who try in any way to justify what was done to me.

That is why I don't want my organs to help them or their families. I know this sounds vindictive but I am so angry.

 

[discokicks]

I had to stay at a psych ward too man. But remember not everyone is bad. I'm an organ donor cos I'd like to leave something behind. I don't "owe" anything but hey if it helps someone then that's better than nothing. But I understand your pain.

 

[IronTusk]

Some psych wards suck, others dont

 

[Santiago]

Can you even be an organ donor when you die by suicide? I thought not

 

[IronTusk]

Can you even be an organ donor when you die by suicide? I thought not

I dont think so

 

[Empty Smile]

Can you even be an organ donor when you die by suicide? I thought not

I would imagine it would determine on your method. If you take SN, it would destroy your insides, so that wouldn't help.

Hanging?? Mmmmmmmm, I don't know...

 

[Walilamdzi]

For me there is a definite 'before' and 'after' in my life... being forcibly taken from my surroundings traumatised me beyond repair and is the worst thing that ever happened to me, far worse than the actual experience of psychosis caused by smoking cannabis. They should have given me time to recover at home.

 

[IronTusk]

For me there is a definite 'before' and 'after' in my life... being forcibly taken from my surroundings traumatised me beyond repair and is the worst thing that ever happened to me, far worse than the actual experience of psychosis caused by smoking cannabis. They should have given me time to recover at home.

What happened?

 

[Walilamdzi]

What happened?

I was hospitalised for a month, everyone I knew treated me differently afterwards but the main thing is that I was put on high doses of damaging psych meds, in a ward with people who were aggressive, threatening staff. Horrible conditions in general. No privacy, windows where staff would check on you every 15 minutes, strangers looking in on you sleeping, not allowed any covers other than a small thin blanket. It's hard to describe all the aspects of why it's a terrible experience. Since that trauma I was hospitalised the same time of year the subsequent two years, and not left alone by "medical professionals" who have done nothing other than destroy my sense of autonomy.

 

[IronTusk]

I was hospitalised for a month, everyone I knew treated me differently afterwards but the main thing is that I was put on high doses of damaging psych meds, in a ward with people who were aggressive, threatening staff. Horrible conditions in general. No privacy, windows where staff would check on you every 15 minutes, strangers looking in on you sleeping, not allowed any covers other than a small thin blanket. It's hard to describe all the aspects of why it's a terrible experience.

Ive been in similiar psych wards. Its tragic.

 

[Walilamdzi]

Ive been in similiar psych wards. Its tragic.

Yeah, it's unforgivable.

 

[IronTusk]

Yeah, it's unforgivable.

I know your pain and im crying right now.

 

[Halo13]

I know your pain and im crying right now.

Spent 3 years in places like that. I feel for you.

 

[IronTusk]

Spent 3 years in places like that. I feel for you.

I lost my mind in a bad psych ward. I've been to good ones though where the nurses are nice and the doctors treat you like a human.

 

[Halo13]

I lost my mind in a bad psych ward. I've been to good ones though where the nurses are nice and the doctors treat you like a human.

That's good. Problem is when I'd get released, I still planned to ctb. Made me almost afraid to leave because of what I'd do to myself.

 

[IronTusk]

That's good. Problem is when I'd get released, I still planned to ctb. Made me almost afraid to leave because of what I'd do to myself.

I won't go back to another one that's for sure

 

[Halo13]

I hope your suffering is over soon. Saw your post about your supplies.

 

[IronTusk]

I hope your suffering is over soon. Saw your post about your supplies.

I'm too depressed or despondent to make the order from alldaychemist. I don't even know if my card will go through. I'm hoping they accept PayPal

 

[Halo13]

I'm too depressed or despondent to make the order from alldaychemist. I don't even know if my card will go through. I'm hoping they accept PayPal

I know that feeling too.