Venting Why i will CTB

[Moby]

Ive been thinking through this a lot, and its not easy, but ive really come to believe CTB is my only option


I ruined my last relationship. Ive quite likely ruined my already tattered reputation in the process.

I need so many meds to be even relatively stable now. I feel like a walking zombie.


I have a crippling fear of being trapped in a painful drawn out death. I want to end things on my own terms.

Im in growing debt and its only getting worse.

Theres not much hope anywhere else. I think its too late to make amends with the hurt ive caused.

I dont want to hurt another person, i dont want to bring another generation of me into the world.

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[InTheAirTonight]

We understand and support your decision

 

[faust]

I am sorry you are experiencing these issues in your life...
And perfectly understand you when you have to take meds just to make you barely function.
Be careful with any relationships now, this is a very unstable thing - people come and people go. This may drag you down if you meet wrong people.
Concerning debts, have you considered all the ways to get rid of them? There are certain people who deal with debts and can give you advice how to make the situation manageable.
If you are ready with your decision, these two things can make your last days more bearable
And even if you decide to give it 1 more chance, can make it easier to stand up.
Wish you a good luck!

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear that you are in a bad situation right now, with relationships and debt. I hope you find a solution to them or if not, then I wish you peace in whatever decision you end up choosing.