Venting Why I want to commit suicide

[Xiaomi]

1. Suffocating parents
2. Verbal and physical abuse (beaten), I still get nervous recalling those moments from my childhood
3. Shithole 3rd World Country where everyone shits on you for a simple mistake
4. A break up
5. Unable to make my own decisions because my parents tell me what to eat, where to go, what to be
6. My family don't give a shit about mental illness, they always say to snap out of it
7. I just want to sleep forever and not worry about anything
8. Can't move out from home, I don't have the energy to find a job and my parents threaten me
9. I'm a loser, always was the weirdest kid in class and work, straight A student with no life

Why I'm still alive? Because of SS friends I will miss so much.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Damn, that sucks. I also have "no life" and live with parents.

 

[logan]

It seems almost impossible but I think the only way out would be if you somehow find the strength to stand on your own two feet.

 

[lotus11]

I relate to so much of what you said here. Don't like the place I was born, horrible relationship with my family, can't for the love of god get a good job or enough money to ever move out permanently, mental and physical illness prevents Mr. Not for lack of trying at all. Have spent the past 8 years trying to live abroad and learn a different language but qt the end of the day I am simply to poor to ever afford my own place qnd sustain life away from here on my own. I'm almost 30. What is the point?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering, life really is cruel. To fall asleep and never wake is also the thing that I want most. I wish you well.