Why i am prepairing for CTB

[Charcoal]

This is my story why i am prepairing of CTB. (My English is not so good, sorry, sometimes i use a translator)

I have now all the CTB sources what i need, i have SN, Paracetemol, Meto, Diazepam..
All in my CTB Box
Ok, i mean the SN is durable for 2-3 years, i hope.

I am 40+ male and i disabled and a short person.
I am dependent on a wheelchair and live at Home with my parents.

My live is not so bad, but i am housebounded and the web is my door to the world.
I have no realy friends, ok my dog is my best friend
No problems with money, a good job. (Home office)

I have no plans to do CTB in the near future.
But my parents where older, my mother may have cancer, i don´t know.

I want to be prepared for the time when I know things won't get any better.
Regardless of whether that's the case for me or my parents.

I don't want to go to a care facility with old drooling people and other disabled people.

Then I would do it.
That's probably stubborn and arrogant (I don't know how else to describe it), but at the end of the day it's my life and I can decide for myself when I want to leave.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings really are understandable and there's nothing arrogant about wanting to have ctb as an option, nobody should be forced to suffer in this existence. But anyway best wishes.