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Cuppatea856
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- May 27, 2020
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I have lost everyone that means something to me; my mom, best friend and now, my brother just died suddenly 8weeks ago. All have all died in the past theee years. My father died when I was young and another brother died about 6years ago. I feel abandoned by them, though I know it's not rational. I don't really think they don't have control over the date of my death but I still feel like why won't they help me, why don't they visit me in dreams? I pray to die everyday and I don't know why everyone has left me behind. This is such a lonely world.
i ordered a gun this week, I'm hanging on because I'm devoted to my elderly dog and don't want to leave her alone. But when she dies I know I will truly freak out. She's my only friend. Btw, I have bipolar disorder and the level of depression I'm feeling is such a dark, black hole that it seems I will never climb out of. Thanks for listening to my rant. Just having a really bad day.
i ordered a gun this week, I'm hanging on because I'm devoted to my elderly dog and don't want to leave her alone. But when she dies I know I will truly freak out. She's my only friend. Btw, I have bipolar disorder and the level of depression I'm feeling is such a dark, black hole that it seems I will never climb out of. Thanks for listening to my rant. Just having a really bad day.