Venting Why does everytime I figure out a method it ends up not being available to me?

[Rn110bg101]

Gun: I live in Europe plus probably wouldn't be able to pass whatever psychological exam they have so impossible.

Drugs: Illegal, and even if not they're way too expensive.

Jumping: No height anywhere near me except for a two story building. I thought it would work but apparently it's not nearly enough, even if the ground below is stone.

Hanging/Night night: I can't for the love of me find that stupid carotid artery, even with literal visuals. (Plus I have a pretty big Adam's apple so nothing happens when I press on the sides.)

Why can't I just die? I'm starting to feel like I should have died a long time ago but it's literally impossible. Everything wants to be in the way until the end, apparently. Why can't I be lucky for once?

(Sorry for the vent. I don't feel safe on Reddit anymore.)

 

[_Minsk]

true, and then the many pro-livers come and say stuff like its easy to ctb, its for the weak lmao

 

[Close_to_freedom]

"Only road left but the one that leads to the end."

-Attack on Titan

 

[next-season .?]

same problem i think my death is here but will never be pecefull