I'm really tired, and I don't want to work or do anything that I don't want to do. Everyone else does it, but I don't want any part of it. Simple as that. I don't want to be alive, period. Don't want to breathe, eat, wake up, relieve myself, fall asleep, etc. I've been wanting to die since I was a young child because when I was a kid, I had made the decision that I don't want to do life. Too bad we can't get a pass on it, we're forced into it. I hate being forced to do anything. I absolutely loathe it and always have. I'm 32 and I have been actively suicidal for 17 years, enough already. There are other reasons too like how this world is a horrible disgusting place with sadistic people in power, CEOs lobbyists government politicians etc. There is no such thing as freedom. I don't want to live in a prison with fake people.