Venting why do we have to suffer when others enjoy life

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After being sick in my mental health for two years (years of taking pills, going to several doctors, trying to be active, etc) I decided to do the hardest step for me to feel better which was coming back to my country so that I could have a better treatment and the attentions from my parents. Is awful but I get it and im really grateful of having the support of my family and acces to a psychiatrist and psychologist and medication. This time I couldnt screw up, right? my parents are here to watch me take my pills everyday, to see me go to the gym everyday, to take me to my doctors and help me in general. When i tought i was doing a little bit better, I started feeling bad again; i just took one step forward and then took the same step behind AND I DONT GET IT. IM DOING EVERYTHING MY DOCTORS TELL ME TO DO, IM BEING ACTIVE, IM ON A SPECIAL DIET FOR MY ANEMIA, IM SLEEPING ANG WAKING UP EARLY, I WRITE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS SO THAT I CAN SHARE THE DETAILS WITH THE DOCTORS. THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN, I DONT ENJOY DOING ANYTHING I USED TO LIKE, IM WORST THAN EVER WITH MY PARTNER AND THAT IS NOT THE PROBLEM ANYWAY, I JUST. FEEL. BAD. I JUST DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING.

Before this post I decided not to think in a negative way so I decided to do some work and I was stable. That so I could be better to my appointment with my psychologist, hahaha i also had psychiatrist and he fucking cancelled me. I was waiting to talk to her and see what I could do and guess what... she also cancelled me. Why is the same people that are supossed to help me the same that turn their back to me for stupid reasons!!! I know is not their fault but all-i-can-thik-about-is

why people like us have to suffer and feel so bad, so bad that no one understands the feeling. that we prefer to have a physical sickness before this shit, or at least I do cause I've been on 3 surgeries and a lot of random sickness. I want to know WHAT DID I DO to deserve this. WHAT KARMA AM I PAYING??? I can say with all seriousness that I am a good person, i treat everyone with respect, i gve second OR MORE chances, i dont get mad, i always try to help the people around me. THEN WHY IS THERE A PERCENTAGE OF PEOPLE, US, THAT FEELS SO FUCKING BAD EVERY DAY AND IT DOESNT MATTER HOW MUCH PILLS WE TAKE, WE STILL FEEL SO FUCKING BAD BUT THERES PEOPLE A}OUT THERE THAT ARE EVIL AND THEY ENJOY LIFE EVERY DAMN SECOND OD THEIR LIFE. LIFE IS A BUNCK OF UNFAIR BULLSHIT. SHOULD I BE SAD THE REST OF MY LIFE? DO I HAVE TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE TO STOP THIS SUFFERING? WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO DO CAUSE THE "RIGHT WAY" ISNT WORKING AND IM TIRED, IM JUST SO TIRED I WANNA BE NORMAL GOD PLEASE CAN I BE NORMAL

 

[wiggy]

It's kind of hard to comment without falling into the tired "life isn't fair" platitude. But I think it's easy to fall into the trap of thinking that a good life experience is the default human state, and we were just unlucky to be riddled with debilitating mental or physical disease, poverty or some other kind of terrible circumstance.

I would offer up that the vast majority of people alive right now aren't exactly having a good time of it. The median standard of living outside of North America and Europe is somewhere between not good and miserable. If we consider the lives of people outside of recent history, things are far worse still. And if you really want to go all the way, you could include the lives of non human animals. All of this is to say, living a happy and meaningful life seems to be the anomaly rather than the other way around. It doesn't have to be all doom and gloom though - an optimist in your situation might take this viewpoint and consider that, despite all their troubles, they still have a far greater chance of living a fulfilling life than most other people who are miserable.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

You can be happy if you're willing to be a criminal or a selfish degenerate. Being a good person in this day and age only gets you trampled on.

 

[SadFoxDreamer83]

After being sick in my mental health for two years (years of taking pills, going to several doctors, trying to be active, etc) I decided to do the hardest step for me to feel better which was coming back to my country so that I could have a better treatment and the attentions from my parents. Is awful but I get it and im really grateful of having the support of my family and acces to a psychiatrist and psychologist and medication. This time I couldnt screw up, right? my parents are here to watch me take my pills everyday, to see me go to the gym everyday, to take me to my doctors and help me in general. When i tought i was doing a little bit better, I started feeling bad again; i just took one step forward and then took the same step behind AND I DONT GET IT. IM DOING EVERYTHING MY DOCTORS TELL ME TO DO, IM BEING ACTIVE, IM ON A SPECIAL DIET FOR MY ANEMIA, IM SLEEPING ANG WAKING UP EARLY, I WRITE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS SO THAT I CAN SHARE THE DETAILS WITH THE DOCTORS. THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN, I DONT ENJOY DOING ANYTHING I USED TO LIKE, IM WORST THAN EVER WITH MY PARTNER AND THAT IS NOT THE PROBLEM ANYWAY, I JUST. FEEL. BAD. I JUST DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING.

Before this post I decided not to think in a negative way so I decided to do some work and I was stable. That so I could be better to my appointment with my psychologist, hahaha i also had psychiatrist and he fucking cancelled me. I was waiting to talk to her and see what I could do and guess what... she also cancelled me. Why is the same people that are supossed to help me the same that turn their back to me for stupid reasons!!! I know is not their fault but all-i-can-thik-about-is

why people like us have to suffer and feel so bad, so bad that no one understands the feeling. that we prefer to have a physical sickness before this shit, or at least I do cause I've been on 3 surgeries and a lot of random sickness. I want to know WHAT DID I DO to deserve this. WHAT KARMA AM I PAYING??? I can say with all seriousness that I am a good person, i treat everyone with respect, i gve second OR MORE chances, i dont get mad, i always try to help the people around me. THEN WHY IS THERE A PERCENTAGE OF PEOPLE, US, THAT FEELS SO FUCKING BAD EVERY DAY AND IT DOESNT MATTER HOW MUCH PILLS WE TAKE, WE STILL FEEL SO FUCKING BAD BUT THERES PEOPLE A}OUT THERE THAT ARE EVIL AND THEY ENJOY LIFE EVERY DAMN SECOND OD THEIR LIFE. LIFE IS A BUNCK OF UNFAIR BULLSHIT. SHOULD I BE SAD THE REST OF MY LIFE? DO I HAVE TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE TO STOP THIS SUFFERING? WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO DO CAUSE THE "RIGHT WAY" ISNT WORKING AND IM TIRED, IM JUST SO TIRED I WANNA BE NORMAL GOD PLEASE CAN I BE NORMAL

I think that there are simply people like us who do not feel happy in this world, or who cannot feel happy in the system that is in place. I have seen many testimonies of people who were terribly unhappy and changed their lifestyle and are now happy. I mean that many people do not manage to be happy in the system. But the same system that makes us unhappy also prevents us from trying other types of life.