
Voidad
The Fearful
- May 4, 2023
- 44
I've been prescribed countless medications, over the decade. They do not help... in fact, they make me feel infinitely worse. My panic attacks get a lot worse and happen a lot more often, they give me suicidal thoughts, they completely destroy my ability to communicate with people (as if I have a lot of that), long story short they absolutely ruin me.
I remember once, I wanted to try seeing my therapist while also taking meds cuz y'know, apparently doing both at the same time is the optimal way... as a result, I spent a whole session looking down on the floor, not being able to utter a single goddamn word.
I was just wondering, if anyone has any clue... what the fuck is wrong with me? Am I like... I don't know... maybe hypochondriac or something? Like, my subconscious purposefully tries to stay sick in order to avoid responsibilities or something like that?
Thank you in advance.
I remember once, I wanted to try seeing my therapist while also taking meds cuz y'know, apparently doing both at the same time is the optimal way... as a result, I spent a whole session looking down on the floor, not being able to utter a single goddamn word.
I was just wondering, if anyone has any clue... what the fuck is wrong with me? Am I like... I don't know... maybe hypochondriac or something? Like, my subconscious purposefully tries to stay sick in order to avoid responsibilities or something like that?
Thank you in advance.