Why do I want to ctb?

[isthisit?]

I've lived a really good life. Parents were fairly wealthy and I had OK grades but now as an adult, I don't really want to be here anymore. I'm planning my ctb right now but I still don't understand why I'm trying to ctb. Do I have some kind of disorder?

 

[RumbleMan]

Dont you have many things to live for? Make you parents proud? Some kind of pets that you adore?


What method will you be using?

 

[isthisit?]

Dont you have many things to live for? Make you parents proud? Some kind of pets that you adore?


What method will you be using?

I really don't have anything to do and having ok grades kinda already ruined my chances of making them proud because the bar is already really high. No pets and I'm thinking of SN but it's really hard to get my hands on so probably tourniquet method out in the Finnish gulf.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to the forum! Did anything change in your life what makes it not worth to be lived any more for you? You should understand why you want to ctb before you do it because this decision cannot be reveresed once successful. Yes I can relate a bit because I lived a really good life but since a few years it's only going down down down and I cannot get the life back I want to have so that's my reason why I'm here.

 

[isthisit?]

Welcome to the forum! Did anything change in your life what makes it not worth to be lived any more for you? You should understand why you want to ctb before you do it because this decision cannot be reveresed once successful. Yes I can relate a bit because I lived a really good life but since a few years it's only going down down down and I cannot get the life back I want to have so that's my reason why I'm here.

Hi, good to hear that I'm not the only one suffering with this and to be honest nothing has really changed. I've just grown up and realised that there's really nothing to do. Life gets repetitive so that might be why I'm trying to ctb?

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's perfectly understandable no longer wishing to be trapped here. Existence is pointless, futile and meaningless, we are only waiting around to die anyway so for me wanting to take control and choose when we exit will always make sense. I could never see existence as being appealing or desirable personally, it's just a process of slowly dying, to exist is such an unnecessary, tedious burden.

 

[JustWantOut500]

I've lived a really good life. Parents were fairly wealthy and I had OK grades but now as an adult, I don't really want to be here anymore. I'm planning my ctb right now but I still don't understand why I'm trying to ctb. Do I have some kind of disorder?

I would talk to a professional before you do anything drastic. Try and figure out what's causing you to feel this way. It's important to leave no stone unturned, you don't wanna CTB when the problem may have been solvable.

Do you have any possible ideas as to why you're feeling this way or are you just completely unsure?

 

[RumbleMan]

I really don't have anything

I really don't have anything to do and having ok grades kinda already ruined my chances of making them proud because the bar is already really high. No pets and I'm thinking of SN but it's really hard to get my hands on so probably tourniquet method out in the Finnish gulf.

Okay, sorry to hear that. Maybe you can get a support dog for suicidal people, is that a thing?

May you find peace in life or death. Praying you dont die a slow painful death.

 

[isthisit?]

I would talk to a professional before you do anything drastic. Try and figure out what's causing you to feel this way. It's important to leave no stone unturned, you don't wanna CTB when the problem may have been solvable.

Do you have any possible ideas as to why you're feeling this way or are you just completely unsure?

Talking to a professional will only trap me in a mental hospital and Estonia only has 1 mental hospital so I will basically be in hell because they send everyone to 1 place.

Okay, sorry to hear that. Maybe you can get a support dog for suicidal people, is that a thing?

May you find peace in life or death. Praying you dont die a slow painful death.

The tourniquet method makes sure that my death is quick and thanks for caring.

 

[day]

Hope you can find some meaning in the meantime. Nonetheless I hope whichever side of the spectrum you choose it's the best for you.

 

[JustWantOut500]

Talking to a professional will only trap me in a mental hospital and Estonia only has 1 mental hospital so I will basically be in hell because they send everyone to 1 place.

The tourniquet method makes sure that my death is quick and thanks for caring.

Ah ok I'm sorry to hear that, in the US you can talk to a psych without automatically getting thrown into a mental hospital. Either way I think it's something you should fully understand why you're doing it and what's causing it before you make your decision. But that's just my opinion. There has to be something causing you to feel that way, if it were me that's something I would want to figure out before making the final call. But either way just wanted to share my opinion, and totally understand if you disagree. And if you do decide to CTB I wish you a peaceful/painless journey.