why do i still want to ctb?

[Anna.]

i'm getting help, my relationship is good, im on medication. i'm in school, and my finances aren't bad. yet my mind still constantly thinks of ctb. i stopped considering it for a while but it won't go away. it's like i'm destined to ctb (i think that anyway but.. you get the point). at this point i'm just gonna succumb to the thoughts and continue with my plans

 

[angeliccry]

you should really sit down and think about the possibilities of you recovering and perhaps finding happiness, think for a while about the affects of it and whether or not you wish to continue on with a strong spirit or take your life. i would advise you to try and find the reasoning for all of this, to perhaps try to fix it. i don't believe anyone is destined to commit, neither do i think people are too powerless in the hands of "destiny". take your time, rest as needed, nothing is unfixable. take care.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that once one has considered suicide it will always exist as an option, they will never be able to truly escape from the wish to die. But anyway, I wish you the best.

 

[man_in_red:)]

Maybe you still have negative thoughts but just subconsciously. Try exploring your subconscious mind with meditations or listen to those healing subliminals, they actually had a positive effect on me which really surprised me.