Venting Why do I push myself into triggering situations? Why am I STILL here with everything that is working against me? I can't do this anymore.

[BeautifulMosaics]

I can't even go outside in peace let alone all the other things I have to deal with. I have great potential but I just have too many things working against me. I can't take this stress and anxiety and I don't deserve it. The panic and sensation I feel is dreadful. I don't know why I always push myself into situations that can trigger me.

And people call people with mental health issues weak.. I've come back from the dead so many times but not being able to handle simple, basic things is just too much, I CAN'T TAKE THIS STRESS FOR FUCKS SAKE, WHY DO I ALWAYS PUSH MYSELF INTO SITUATIONS THAT ARE GOING TO TRIGGER ME, I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

That's why people that judge others because they can't perform in life as they see fit will always make me laugh. LIVE IN MY SHOES AND MAYBE YOU'LL UNDERSTAND YOU T***

I'm just done and I don't deserve this. Like this is ridiculous. What am I holding on for? Why am I STILL here with all these things working against me?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to deal with all this suffering. I can imagine that must be unbearable. I wish you the best.

 

[OldDrummer]

I hear ya.

The one great thing about SS is it's a lot like AA - peers supporting peers.

I've never heard one good word spoken about professional mental health people, but I'm sure they must do a little good too.

Just vent here.

 

[CommitSudoku]

We are our own worst enemies. Even in the fact that the human body can be so resilient when we least want it. Best wishes whatever happens.

 

[Crazy4u]

I'm on the opposite side of you. I try to avoid triggering situations to extreme levels. There are many triggering things in my life so I avoid many things and many people whenever I can. Everything is so stressful it is not worth it. You don't deserve what is happening to you. Life sucks

 

[Someone123]

I can't even go outside in peace let alone all the other things I have to deal with. I have great potential but I just have too many things working against me. I can't take this stress and anxiety and I don't deserve it. The panic and sensation I feel is dreadful. I don't know why I always push myself into situations that can trigger me.

And people call people with mental health issues weak.. I've come back from the dead so many times but not being able to handle simple, basic things is just too much, I CAN'T TAKE THIS STRESS FOR FUCKS SAKE, WHY DO I ALWAYS PUSH MYSELF INTO SITUATIONS THAT ARE GOING TO TRIGGER ME, I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

That's why people that judge others because they can't perform in life as they see fit will always make me laugh. LIVE IN MY SHOES AND MAYBE YOU'LL UNDERSTAND YOU T***

I'm just done and I don't deserve this. Like this is ridiculous. What am I holding on for? Why am I STILL here with all these things working against me?

I have felt like that many, many times, and yet today I am on an upswing, there is a but of hope that hasn't been there in pretty long- whether it wioll last I don't know- upswings like this can be unpredictable, but it's nice while it lasts.