why didn't i kill myself already?

[iDesireDeath]

1. if i die, my rectum and bladder would leak, and that would be embarrassing.
2. the characters that i have developed throughout the years would also die along with me. if i commit suicide, i would also commit murder. their humor, their intellect, their distinct features that differentiate them from each other and me, would be gone forever.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

I don't do it due to my endless fear of the afterlife. Well I'm planning on it. I doubt ill go through with it.

 

[iDesireDeath]

I don't do it due to my endless fear of the afterlife. Well I'm planning on it. I doubt ill go through with it.

the concept of afterlife is as comforting as void

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

the concept of afterlife is as comforting as void

That's a scary possibility. I'm more scared of being sent to hell. even if I think i might deserve it. I hope I dont. But honestly who will know?

 

[pariah80]

I don't do it due to my endless fear of the afterlife. Well I'm planning on it. I doubt ill go through with it.

But death is coming regardless. Whether you ctb or let life kill you. It's something you can't escape... if there is an afterlife. I guess I'll never understand fearing the inevitable. To each their own.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

But death is coming regardless. Whether you ctb or let life kill you. It's something you can't escape... if there is an afterlife. I guess I'll never understand fearing the inevitable. To each their own.

I genuinely don't fear dying. Its what comes next.

 

[iDesireDeath]

That's a scary possibility. I'm more scared of being sent to hell. even if I think i might deserve it. I hope I dont. But honestly who will know?

if we end up in hell, i would love to meet you and other fellow suicidees. In a few weeks, or months, or years, IDK.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

if we end up in hell, i would love to meet you and other fellow suicidees. In a few weeks, or months, or years, IDK.

Don't know. Found a way to partial hang myself. That's a good thing!

 

[pariah80]

I genuinely don't fear dying. Its what comes next.

Again, though, whatever is after is an eventuality anyway. If there's an afterlife, it's coming. Reincarnation? It's coming. You'll have to deal with it, regardless of what you do. Chances are, there's no one keeping a moral tally on what happens in human life. 'Hell' is a concept used to strike fear into people if they don't conform to societal norms. And judging from our exchange, it's working. If there is a hell, this life is probably it. Either way, I personally don't see the point in scaring myself into misery about what is coming. If it is hell, I'll deal with it. I dealt with this life, so I can probably deal with that.

It just seems like unnecessary frustration to cause oneself. However, your fears are valid.

 

[iDesireDeath]

Again, though, whatever is after is an eventuality anyway. If there's an afterlife, it's coming. Reincarnation? It's coming. You'll have to deal with it, regardless of what you do. Chances are, there's no one keeping a moral tally on what happens in human life. 'Hell' is a concept used to strike fear into people if they don't conform to societal norms. And judging from our exchange, it's working. If there is a hell, this life is probably it. Either way, I personally don't see the point in scaring myself into misery about what is coming. If it is hell, I'll deal with it. I dealt with this life, so I can probably deal with that.

It just seems like unnecessary frustration to cause oneself. However, your fears are valid.

is it better to live, than to fear death, or afterlife? or take a step ahead and find out what's really on the other side, whether it is void, or a new life, or the day of judgement?

is it better to live, than to fear death, or afterlife? or take a step ahead and find out what's really on the other side, whether it is void, or a new life, or the day of judgement?

@JustSomeWierdo

 

[pariah80]

is it better to live, than to fear death, or afterlife? or take a step ahead and find out what's really on the other side, whether it is void, or a new life, or the day of judgement?

The best thing is to be clear on what one wants to do. If they want to hold onto life, then they should alleviate fears of the inevitable and try to make their lives a lot less stressful. If they choose catching the bus, then they should be clear on why they want to do it and do everything they can to gather the mental and spiritual fortitude it will take to see it through. Either way, fearing death and what's after just seems kind of silly and unnecessary to me. Here someone is fearing a hell if they ctb, just to get hit by a bus or a stray bullet or worse.

There's no need to fear hell, we're already there. Food falls from tress and we pay to live.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

But death is coming regardless. Whether you ctb or let life kill you. It's something you can't escape... if there is an afterlife. I guess I'll never understand fearing the inevitable. To each their own.

I fear the inevitable. By that, I don't mean death itself but rather the dying process. No matter how I go through the dying process, I know that it'd be absolutely horrific because all ways of dying are horrific due to this society preferring to survive for another additional second than dying peacefully by their own hands. This thought consumes me everyday and causes a lot of suffering to be inflicted upon me. It is possible to fear the inevitable. Death isn't scary to me but dying is