If, like, at least 10 women which got to know me somewhat as a person and told me at some point that I should kill myself, then I would conclude that there is some truth to that statement.
I just can't imagine that this is a normal thing for an person to say to someone else, that they should kill themselves, and in my case it was 10 different persons (women).
Since my brain is succumbing to the repeated statement by different people to kill myself, I'm even taking the risk ending up in hell since I don't even have a clue of how I could avoid hell anyways.
Ending up in hell after I die is an possibility for me because of paranormal events that I experienced in my life which I cannot explain in any other way than to conclude that there is a hell realm waiting for me.
One example of an paranormal event a few years ago was that a young woman randomly announced to me at around 3 am that 'shadow people' will enter her bedroom in which we spent the night together. Then, what I can only describe as 'black ghosts', entered the room which filled me with fear, for it was my first real encounter with something supernatural. I couldn't simply write it off as an lucid dream or an hallucination, because
1.: I was awake, and
2.: How could it be an hallucination which only I perceived when an real person beside me announced what was about to unfold?
My best guess was and still is that these were some ghosts, stemming from an hellish realm (besides some other paranormal events that night), thus the conclusion that I would end up there if I die 'unprepeared'.
The other paranormal events earlier the same night were when a man and his girlfriend were as guests in the bedroom of the young women, and the girlfriend of that men randomly announced to me that she's a witch with a stone cold stare directly into my soul. I also got an WhatsApp call from some dude which was very successful with women and he looked like a demon, with red skin, big muscles and horns. He didn't say anything, he was just heavily breathing and looking at me. I just could tell that this wasn't just an silly filter, it looked so real.
So, either someone poisoned me with datura which maybe could explain what I was experiencing, or there really exist an spiritual world including an afterlife. I just don't know.
My final conclusion is, that I just can't figure out what is going on overall and being non-existent apart from this life right now for eternity after I die (like before I was born) is still the sweetest dream that I'm chasing so hard. I mean, I can't remember existing before my birth, that's my only hope in this utter mess.
I just can't imagine that this is a normal thing for an person to say to someone else, that they should kill themselves, and in my case it was 10 different persons (women).
Since my brain is succumbing to the repeated statement by different people to kill myself, I'm even taking the risk ending up in hell since I don't even have a clue of how I could avoid hell anyways.
Ending up in hell after I die is an possibility for me because of paranormal events that I experienced in my life which I cannot explain in any other way than to conclude that there is a hell realm waiting for me.
One example of an paranormal event a few years ago was that a young woman randomly announced to me at around 3 am that 'shadow people' will enter her bedroom in which we spent the night together. Then, what I can only describe as 'black ghosts', entered the room which filled me with fear, for it was my first real encounter with something supernatural. I couldn't simply write it off as an lucid dream or an hallucination, because
1.: I was awake, and
2.: How could it be an hallucination which only I perceived when an real person beside me announced what was about to unfold?
My best guess was and still is that these were some ghosts, stemming from an hellish realm (besides some other paranormal events that night), thus the conclusion that I would end up there if I die 'unprepeared'.
The other paranormal events earlier the same night were when a man and his girlfriend were as guests in the bedroom of the young women, and the girlfriend of that men randomly announced to me that she's a witch with a stone cold stare directly into my soul. I also got an WhatsApp call from some dude which was very successful with women and he looked like a demon, with red skin, big muscles and horns. He didn't say anything, he was just heavily breathing and looking at me. I just could tell that this wasn't just an silly filter, it looked so real.
So, either someone poisoned me with datura which maybe could explain what I was experiencing, or there really exist an spiritual world including an afterlife. I just don't know.
My final conclusion is, that I just can't figure out what is going on overall and being non-existent apart from this life right now for eternity after I die (like before I was born) is still the sweetest dream that I'm chasing so hard. I mean, I can't remember existing before my birth, that's my only hope in this utter mess.
