I can relate too. I haven't left the house in over 3 months and the idea of going out exhausts me. At the same time I know this lethargy is doing me harm, and I wish I could somehow find myself out somewhere having a nice time.
Take me with you, @SterileMoth? I'll sit in your hair and we can both try to enjoy it?
That sounds great, honestly going out and being with people who
get it is much easier. There's no need to pretend as much if someone is on the same page as you. You can just be sad and tired and quiet together.
I guess I'm lucky in that I had a brief "vacation" from it, I was sitting at about a 6 on the suicide scale for about a week at the end of June (Referring to: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicidal-scale.41262/) so I actually got out a fair amount in that week for the first time since covid-19 hit. I'd put myself at a 9 now.
It is really difficult to do that kind of thing in public. If you have someone that you feel comfortable with, try to invite to your house or goign to his/hers. I am a homely person, i prefer doing things w/ people inside a house, although lately it is hard to do. Always try something and then make your best decision! Be cool
I wish I could, I had hoped to go over to one friends house but he works tomorrow morning and just wants a quick visit at the bar, the other lives farther off but she prefers households as well. I might just try to keep it short, or maybe after the first guy leaves me and her could sit in a park. I despise bars and pubs, but that's where everyone wants to meet at.
