I can't cry but I only know how I managed to get only meto today I am feeling dizzy again super dizzy. I rode bike for so long it sucks that I still have to do this. I visited around 40-50 shops in total for all the things SN, propranolol, meto. These motherfuckers denied to give SN and propranolol but I atleast got meto and I feel bad that I got only one strip at first chemist then the other one asked me how many you want so I again said only 1 10mg strip of 10 tablets now I have 200mg which sucks that's the required quantity I will try to get SN atleast from online and check again at local shops because they kept giving me directions or raising eyebrows or getting fed up so quick when I asked they denied to even tell if I can get it somewhere but I found a couple so good people who said If we had I would give it they gave me names of shops I felt so weak so I got home today I will go someday and try to get them and also asked if I can come back to them for help or info they said sure and a couple people told they also used to get SN 20 years ago but now they aren't sure if those shops would give it's somewhere close my college I will look for it. I will anyhow get these I can't go living in this world without the will and feeling dizzy half the time. I am done I just want to be gone anyhow by next year as soon as possible and I will make my way this country has people who are poor and good they could help me get it, I could get it from online hoping because I found some websites and even one on a famous e-commerce so yes I will even try to make connections get prescription anything and get extra supplies for two attempts in case I fail and I think I will do something to get better control over my instinct I think I will pass out quicker as I am weak and my disease so I really hope I just get these. I feel so bad today I wish someone strangled me.
