Why can't I just pass out (partial)

[CursedForDisaster]

I wish I'd just pass out but everytime I feel the world turning fuzzy I jolt up and save myself. I just can't get past the thought of my parents finding me dead or convulsing, they don't deserve it but I'm just sick of life. Now I'm just laying here with a sore neck and terrible thoughts knowing I'm going to be feeling like this for the foreseeable future. Will most likely start "practicing" my hangs every night this week.

 

[lonelykiwi]

I wish I'd just pass out but everytime I feel the world turning fuzzy I jolt up and save myself. I just can't get past the thought of my parents finding me dead or convulsing, they don't deserve it but I'm just sick of life. Now I'm just laying here with a sore neck and terrible thoughts knowing I'm going to be feeling like this for the foreseeable future. Will most likely start "practicing" my hangs every night this week.

Practice can make it easier, you get more comfortable with the feel of the fuzzies. Then one time you'll embrace then & that'll be it. Definitely takes a bit of will power to stay in partial