Why can't I do this?

[Seekingawayout]

I had a small window of time to be alone, and I thought I'd hang myself while they were gone. But now I can't get my sweet spot. I just feel like I'm being strangled. I managed it so easy in the past. I need this to happen now!

 

[donealready]

Had a similar experience about a month ago. In a hotel room, couldn't find the the sweet spot for literally hours. Had practiced for the month previous, no problems. It just couldn't happen. I'm so sorry, it's beyond frustrating and so unfair.

 

[Seekingawayout]

I really don't know what to do. I'm at a point where I think stabbing myself in the neck might be the only way. I need to go, now!

 

[Al_stargate]

Sorry man. Stabbing in the neck might be possible if it would be done with an extremely sharp knife. I'm not sure if one can do it with a regular knife. Sorry about your pain. Wish you well!

 

[donealready]

As I was attempting the night night method, I immediately went to partial hanging, of course that didn't work either. So my very next thought was to do exactly that. Knife in the neck. Exactly the same thought process as you. Survival instinct is a fucking bitch and instead out of frustration I slashed both sides of my neck. Obviously wasn't deep enough but i bled for hours / days. Now sporting some rather unsightly scars in a really obvious place. I completely understand your frustration and desperation. I really do. This method may not work for you. I don't know. But I hear you. And it fucking sucks.
I can only say, and you won't want to hear this, but perhaps researching other methods may provide more success. Obviously that doesn't help you right now with your undeniable pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really awful and frustrating being in that situation, I really hate the fact how it's this difficult to voluntarily die, we really shouldn't have to suffer so much in leaving this world. Your wish to be instantly gone really is understandable so I do hope that you find the freedom that you are looking for.

 

[Seekingawayout]

As I was attempting the night night method, I immediately went to partial hanging, of course that didn't work either. So my very next thought was to do exactly that. Knife in the neck. Exactly the same thought process as you. Survival instinct is a fucking bitch and instead out of frustration I slashed both sides of my neck. Obviously wasn't deep enough but i bled for hours / days. Now sporting some rather unsightly scars in a really obvious place. I completely understand your frustration and desperation. I really do. This method may not work for you. I don't know. But I hear you. And it fucking sucks.
I can only say, and you won't want to hear this, but perhaps researching other methods may provide more success. Obviously that doesn't help you right now with your undeniable pain.

The thing is, just yesterday I DID get it to work, but chickened out because the fainting feeling freaks me out. Same with tourniquet, I got it to work before SI made me take it off. I don't have a lot of time to be alone rn, but would have been long enough if I could my sweet spot. I was determined to power through this time. But if I can't go unconscious I'll just be strangling myself.
I guess I'll be switching from the scarf back to rope, maybe? I never had an issue with the scarf before.

Sorry man. Stabbing in the neck might be possible if it would be done with an extremely sharp knife. I'm not sure if one can do it with a regular knife. Sorry about your pain. Wish you well!

I have a pretty sharp chef's knife.
I hate this. Should have just powered through yesterday.