sickgirlzis
the most optimistic pessimist
- Apr 17, 2024
- 51
i haven't been on here in a long time because i felt more negative being on here but i have nowhere else to go.
i don't get why im even alive. i always believed the purpose of life was to be happy, and still do believe that, but if im not happy, then what is the point? at this point, i wish I were never born at all. i always had hope that things would get better but it's going to take a while for that to happen and im so broken down and empty that i don't even want to try anymore. i am too scared to die so i wish I was just never born in the first place. and it's even worse knowing no one would really miss me since im socially isolated. every second im alive feels like torture.
i don't get why im even alive. i always believed the purpose of life was to be happy, and still do believe that, but if im not happy, then what is the point? at this point, i wish I were never born at all. i always had hope that things would get better but it's going to take a while for that to happen and im so broken down and empty that i don't even want to try anymore. i am too scared to die so i wish I was just never born in the first place. and it's even worse knowing no one would really miss me since im socially isolated. every second im alive feels like torture.