Politecat
Member
- Dec 9, 2018
- 56
I have to work Christmas from 3-12 so I'm gone the entire night.
Not technically alone but none of my family talk to me past a 'hi' so I will be around them but alone. I keep thinking in my head to just sit in nature outside the entire day and be away from everyone, but it will be absolutely freezing outside so I'm not sure I can. I'm treat like it's a nuisance I even exist, which I probably am to everyone.
I am dreading it. I have to spend it with my girlfriend and her family because we went to my brother's for Thanksgiving and I know we have to stick around for this holiday. Her family doesn't like me and has said some nasty things about me recently so I am super uncomfortable. I have no idea how I'll get through it. I might try to drown myself in eggnog. 79 on the lostallhope agony scale is peanuts compared to faking my way through this garbage.
Lol!I am thinking of making my last turkey.
Wonder if I can re use my exit bag after a turkey is roasted in it?
I am thinking of making my last turkey.
Wonder if I can re use my exit bag after a turkey is roasted in it?
Im spending christmas alone like i did thanksgiving fuck these feelings of guilt and stress and depression, my family i feel is selfish and ungreatful. No one has any idea what im going through nor am i really trying to act like im happy in reality everywhere i go i put fake smile on and go through the motions. Inside i feels hopelessness emptiness.Forcing myself to be apart of society till i make my peace and CTB