Who else has a list of Reasons why, like the TV show?

[CGN83]

Out of curiosity I'm wondering who else has a list of "Reasons why" similar to what the main character in 13 reasons why had?

I intend on sending my list of Reasons why by post to each person who has hurt me and driven my suicidal thoughts.

It cruel, but I want them to live knowing they contributed towards my death.

 

[lpdsvm]

I think if those people do not know you well anymore, they won't care. They might get surprised and forget in a day or two since they have their own issues and get stressed too.
If I send a list, some people will celebrate. My boss will only care about the replacement. Maybe get sad for a fraction of a second or celebrate laughing with their colleagues. Haha
My mom will be sad so here I might have to say (lie) that I would never CTB or give a perfect explanation it is not her fault. She didn't terrorize me. She wasn't a typical abuser. Nothing bad from those memories. A mistake is different from an active act of violence and toxic behavior.
I just have 3-4 main points and if they (one or a all of them depending on the circumstances) come true I will CTB.

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's maybe more of a sequence of problems, possible solutions and why I believe those solutions won't be adequate.

I suppose it matters to me that my potential suicide is well reasoned out inside my head. Although, I doubt others would accept that reasoning so- I wonder if formating it into a list or sequence would be that beneficial. I'll probably still try though.

My initial ideation was because of an individual and, had I died at that time- I did want to name/ blame them. Now though- it's more just the unavoidable grind of life that doesn't bear enough reward. I'll probably still express that in a note in some way if I have the guts to end it.