While I was in prison…

[dainsearach]

When I was in prison I fantasised about what my life would be like on the outside, I'd make all these changes and become a better person, I'd have better relationships, I'd start fresh. Within 48 hours I broke the terms of my release and could potentially go back to prison. I hate myself. I had a new start and ruined it in less than a week. My family rang me yesterday to tell me how I've broken their hearts completely, they can't even look at me any more. There's no fresh start for me. I'll always be this horrible despicable disgusting person. I am so desperate to ctb can someone please just take all of this away from me? I'd like a partner to ctb with because I dont have the resources to do it alone atm.

 

[jonward55]

Still looking for UK sources unless I would.

 

[dainsearach]

Still looking for UK sources unless I would.

Let me know if you find anything I dont even have a permanent address to order stuff to so I'm really relying on the kindness of strangers

 

[FuneralCry]

To me suicide partners are a bad idea as you cannot trust and rely on people in this world, but there is a partners megathread on this site under the members information section on the front page. It's very unfortunate how suicide is so difficult in this world but it's sadly the reality. There are just no easy answers to leaving behind existence but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[vaguebluur]

When I was in prison I fantasised about what my life would be like on the outside, I'd make all these changes and become a better person, I'd have better relationships, I'd start fresh. Within 48 hours I broke the terms of my release and could potentially go back to prison. I hate myself. I had a new start and ruined it in less than a week. My family rang me yesterday to tell me how I've broken their hearts completely, they can't even look at me any more. There's no fresh start for me. I'll always be this horrible despicable disgusting person. I am so desperate to ctb can someone please just take all of this away from me? I'd like a partner to ctb with because I dont have the resources to do it alone atm.

I've been here so many times, currently sleeping ruff for 12 weeks cos prison released me homeless, are u UK?