Which one is the safest knot for the anchor point for full hanging???

[Terrible_Life_99]

Which knot should i use for the anchor point its a wood beam that is rectangular. I read that the bowline can get open if the weight moves back and forth. So which knot is the safest one ?
I wanted to use this but it says that the knot will get tighter around the anchor so i was afraid the edges of the beam could destroy the rope and I could fall down.

 

[mychois]

If you aren't sure about the knot's advantages and disadvantages, why take risk of brain damage in case it fails?

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Because I planned ctb now for a very long time and i have enough from this fucking world. I also think both knots would held perfectly but its ocd which tortures me to reconsider everything. I just want to die and I think therefore i should just do it.

 

[mychois]

I feel sorry for your illness and situation, I know some friends who are also constantly bothered by OCD. You really need to reach out for professional help. By the way, the knot doesn't work well on flat surfaces. Suffering from OCD sucks enough, but suffering from OCD with further brain damage sucks even more.
Wishing you peace.