Eudaimonic
I want to fade away.
- Aug 11, 2023
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So, I realized that a shotgun may be impractical given the size of it (I don't think I have a large enough backpack, for instance) and my current circumstances. I would have to buy a folding shotgun with all of the right specs, that can fit in mouth, etc. (I don't know if this even exists or how available it would be) or I would need to strip the weapon down whenever I was using it. I believe that even if I took the stock off, it would still be too long. The other reason I am leaning toward a handgun is that I may not be able to hide getting a gun license (assuming I cannot have the license held at the post office), so it would be FAR less suspicious if I got a handgun that is used for self-defense. I can't imagine anyone around here using a shotgun for self-defense. Regardless, it doesn't seem worth the risk since there is a definite possibility that the people I live with will figure out that I have a gun license/bought a gun, and it's better if it's something with more plausible deniability than a shotgun.
I know where to aim (10-15° intraoral aimed at medulla oblongata, 1.5-2" deep), and if I use JHP and practice enough, I think it should be alright, especially if I take blood thinners, wear a weighted vest, and shoot myself in a river/lake and/or on top of a high structure in a remote enough location.
Since for a handgun, practicing is absolutely essential to avoid flinching or jerking the gun, I figured I would get either a 44 or 357 magnum (supposedly, revolvers are better for CTB purposes), so that I can hopefully handle the recoil. It is my understanding that the .44 has considerably more recoil, which might make the tradeoff not worthwhile despite being more powerful overall.
Should I use P+ or +P+ for either? Is 125 gr for .357 good?
Anyway, I know next to nothing about guns, so any input would be greatly appreciated.
I know where to aim (10-15° intraoral aimed at medulla oblongata, 1.5-2" deep), and if I use JHP and practice enough, I think it should be alright, especially if I take blood thinners, wear a weighted vest, and shoot myself in a river/lake and/or on top of a high structure in a remote enough location.
Since for a handgun, practicing is absolutely essential to avoid flinching or jerking the gun, I figured I would get either a 44 or 357 magnum (supposedly, revolvers are better for CTB purposes), so that I can hopefully handle the recoil. It is my understanding that the .44 has considerably more recoil, which might make the tradeoff not worthwhile despite being more powerful overall.
Should I use P+ or +P+ for either? Is 125 gr for .357 good?
Anyway, I know next to nothing about guns, so any input would be greatly appreciated.
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