Sherri
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- Sep 28, 2020
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Now that the holidays are around the corner, where everyone is doing for Christmas ? This time of the year doesn't have any magic for me anymore. Spent many alone. Kinda immune to it now.
Very true socially the part that people ruined it, Christmas adds starting in October is insane. I only wanted gifts when i was a kid, now I dont care and hate when people send me paper postcards.with my knees to my chest in a chair, angry about time past.
I never wanted "stuff" or gifts.
I wanted to be seen or heard or acknowledged instead of ignored and repeatedly fucked with and setup for bullshit and misery.
It's not a good holiday or time of year, and people ruined it for each other.
You know, "gifts" as a kid were "cool" but it would've been better not to be abused and paraded around and watch the abuse continue. It was used to setup violence.Very true socially the part that people ruined it, Christmas adds starting in October is insane. I only wanted gifts when i was a kid, now I dont care and hate when people send me paper postcards.
Wise words you said. You wrote it with your soul I can tell. So honest. I'm sorry you facing a hard time, won't say it gets better, I would be lying.You know, "gifts" as a kid were "cool" but it would've been better not to be abused and paraded around and watch the abuse continue. It was used to setup violence.
The buy buy buy shit has gone above and beyond.
Materialism.
Selfishness.
Insults.
Insults to injuries.
Injuries and more injuries.
Ruined lives in general.
Being blamed for everything.
Shit, fuck the holidays.
I've had "good" holidays and I've had horrible holidays.
The common factor would be the direct relatives who destroyed them. Who destroyed me.
I "like" the art, the displays. But I hate the selfishness of it. Society is so god damn wasteful. Time was the only thing that really "mattered", and people just wanted money or objects or to hurt me however they could. So that being said. You know.
Same here, I dont wanna be with family would rather be with my other hand just the two of us. But I've been avoiding family gatherings for years.i was going to spend it with my fiancee but she left me so just with family as per usual this year.
Christmas began to be mass marketed in Victorian England as a holiday for children, to pamper them with toys.
i imagine nowadays grownups look forward to it too, but i haven't been able to for a very long time.
Oh yes, I will take time to come here to on Christmas and not even bothered about NYE. Just fed up of these face masks.I honestly don't know. All of my family is splitting up and travelling to all parts of the world for Christmas. I'll just be at home doing something like Sudoku/crossword puzzles or something-- oh! And browsing SS.
Time makes it more bearable sometimes, other Days not so well others meh.You know, "gifts" as a kid were "cool" but it would've been better not to be abused and paraded around and watch the abuse continue. It was used to setup violence.
The buy buy buy shit has gone above and beyond.
Materialism.
Selfishness.
Insults.
Insults to injuries.
Injuries and more injuries.
Ruined lives in general.
Being blamed for everything.
Shit, fuck the holidays.
I've had "good" holidays and I've had horrible holidays.
The common factor would be the direct relatives who destroyed them. Who destroyed me.
I "like" the art, the displays. But I hate the selfishness of it. Society is so god damn wasteful. Time was the only thing that really "mattered", and people just wanted money or objects or to hurt me however they could. So that being said. You know.
Hello @DocNo long Time no see. Happy to hear something from you. Hope you are well.alone at home watching the famous xmas movie "dredd".
Yes home alone 1 and 2 are def on the list for me also.At home. Maybe my family will be there too but I won't care because I'm just going to drown out all the negativity from my past that I associate with this holiday with food and Christmas movies.
Everyone deserves a second chance or a third chance to be happy. Hope you will find it somehow. Big hug.I just want to be alone, I've never liked family meetings because I feel that I don't fit, mainly because it reminds me that somehow I don't deserve to be happy.
I will be in my bedroom sitting on the computer.