br0kenMIND72

br0kenMIND72

Feeling dead since childhood
Jan 25, 2020
22
This question above is to people who obviously overcame suicide thoughts. When I was a kid I promised myself that I will kill myself and maybe this entire time I had wrong state of mind? Back then I thought this would be easy thing to do but it turns out it is not.
This year I'm going to be 22 and maybe it's not too late to stand up and fight, right? I always had negative thoughts, and I started to wonder what will happen if I will have positive thoughts. I know my family won't understand me because actually I have suicide thoughts because of my parents and when I tried to tell my mom I have a depression she laughed me off, maybe something is wrong with them and not me, my family sucks. I wish I had someone who would teach me how to live, how to drive a car, give some life advice...
Like in normal family.
 
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Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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This question above is to people who obviously overcame suicide thoughts. When I was a kid I promised myself that I will kill myself and maybe this entire time I had wrong state of mind? Back then I thought this would be easy thing to do but it turns out it is not.
This year I'm going to be 22 and maybe it's not too late to stand up and fight, right? I always had negative thoughts, and I started to wonder what will happen if I will have positive thoughts. I know my family won't understand me because actually I have suicide thoughts because of my parents and when I tried to tell my mom I have a depression she laughed me off, maybe something is wrong with them and not me, my family sucks. I wish I had someone who would teach me how to live, how to drive a car, give some life advice...
Like in normal family.
If you want to talk about this, I'm here for you. PM me. :heart:
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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This question above is to people who obviously overcame suicide thoughts. When I was a kid I promised myself that I will kill myself and maybe this entire time I had wrong state of mind? Back then I thought this would be easy thing to do but it turns out it is not.
This year I'm going to be 22 and maybe it's not too late to stand up and fight, right? I always had negative thoughts, and I started to wonder what will happen if I will have positive thoughts. I know my family won't understand me because actually I have suicide thoughts because of my parents and when I tried to tell my mom I have a depression she laughed me off, maybe something is wrong with them and not me, my family sucks. I wish I had someone who would teach me how to live, how to drive a car, give some life advice...
Like in normal family.
Yeah I wish my family taught me all that stuff too minus the driving the car since my grandma taught me that. Now I feel incompetent as hell because there's so much I don't know that I probably should know. I'm also turning 22 this year and my mom also laughed at me when I told her the reason for my depression.
 
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Sadddd

Sadddd

How did I end up here
Jan 26, 2020
57
I can only recommend speaking about it/getting help as soon as you can. I'm about to turn 41, dad died when I was 12, mum did the best she could but her mum died when she was young and her dad was an alcoholic and absent so she didn't have anyone to learn from. I've struggled with depression and anxiety and isolating myself since I was super young and only now am trying to deal with it.

There are people on here with more struggles than me by far but I wish I had started speaking to ANYONE in my 20's. 22 is def not too late to address these feelings.

Hope the above doesn't sound patronising, not making it about me but I envy the time you have on your side :-)

Good luck, sending positive thoughts..
 
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Deleted member 13227

Good night
Dec 21, 2019
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I can only recommend speaking about it/getting help as soon as you can. I'm about to turn 41, dad died when I was 12, mum did the best she could but her mum died when she was young and her dad was an alcoholic and absent so she didn't have anyone to learn from. I've struggled with depression and anxiety and isolating myself since I was super young and only now am trying to deal with it.

There are people on here with more struggles than me by far but I wish I had started speaking to ANYONE in my 20's. 22 is def not too late to address these feelings.

Hope the above doesn't sound patronising, not making it about me but I envy the time you have on your side :-)

Good luck, sending positive thoughts..

Wow, I am only 18 and feel like it's already too late for me.
 
WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
837
I'm 35. Statistically my life is half over. I missed out on a lot and I would have liked to have been aware of what I know now back in my 20s. The sooner you get on the right path, the better.
 
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Cevapcici

Student
Dec 30, 2018
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This question above is to people who obviously overcame suicide thoughts. When I was a kid I promised myself that I will kill myself and maybe this entire time I had wrong state of mind? Back then I thought this would be easy thing to do but it turns out it is not.
This year I'm going to be 22 and maybe it's not too late to stand up and fight, right? I always had negative thoughts, and I started to wonder what will happen if I will have positive thoughts. I know my family won't understand me because actually I have suicide thoughts because of my parents and when I tried to tell my mom I have a depression she laughed me off, maybe something is wrong with them and not me, my family sucks. I wish I had someone who would teach me how to live, how to drive a car, give some life advice...
Like in normal family.
Nah, 22 is definitely not too late to start building your life. You have realised you've been put on a path of inhibition,low self-esteem by being neglected by your family background. You have to reprogram a lot what you've been led to believe about yourself to release your potential, and it's gonna take time, patience, and effort. You're playing life on hard mode but if you out in the effort to work on yourself and do things even if you're scared and clueless, I promise you will get some enjoyment out of it. Try counseling, try reiki, try acquiring experience and philosophical knowledge, try getting a "mentor" - there's always gonna be someone older than you you can look up to , and will positively influence you on your life path. It will not replace your parents, but it can help.
 
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Suicide_vampire

Suicide_vampire

In Vino Veritas
Feb 11, 2020
426
I'm 47, I started self harming at the age 4, I had troubles throughout my teens, my family was OK. Through my 20s, 30s and even into my 40s I still struggle I have suicidal thoughts every day. Every day is a struggle, but I keep pushing on.
My dog is great support gives me a purpose and reason to be here. I have no friends. I finally got a diagnosis just over a year ago of ASD, while it came as a shock at my age it made a lot of sense. I have had mental health issues all my life been on all the meds, gained weight on all the meds. But you just have to take it a day at a time, promise yourself every day that you will see tomorrow. The thoughts probably won't go but they might not hold so much power over you. And well I'm just new here, but we are all here for you. To talk in public or in private. Just keep talking
 
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