Where to go to take SN

[stilhavinightmares]

I can't do it at home because I don't want my wife to find my body, or find me and save me. I think it will have to be in my car. I am terrified of someone finding me too early. I was thinking of going to a rural residential area at the beginning of the night, that way it won't look suspicious that I am parked there and I will be far enough from houses that nobody will hear me…that or a parking lot somewhere by the woods but I'm afraid my car will look suspicious somewhere secluded and a cop could find me. It will have to be overnight. I am still trying to figure out when because I can't go anywhere for that long without my wife knowing, so I'll have to come up with a lie or just be very sneaky.

Thoughts?

 

[DarkRose]

Hey, How about a motel? I don't know what lies you can tell your wife but motels are pretty cheap and your guaranteed no one will find you.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Hey, How about a motel? I don't know what lies you can tell your wife but motels are pretty cheap and your guaranteed no one will find you.

That's a thought…I've seen stories about other guests hearing noises though when the body is dying which is scary. Also I would rather die in my car because it's at least mine/comforting. I'm just so scared I'm going to be found before I'm dead and I cannot continue to live after that.

I also would like to traumatize the least amount of people as possible.

 

[DarkRose]

That's a thought…I've seen stories about other guests hearing noises though when the body is dying which is scary. Also I would rather die in my car because it's at least mine/comforting. I'm just so scared I'm going to be found before I'm dead and I cannot continue to live after that.

I also would like to traumatize the least amount of people as possible.

A car could work, you would just need to find a place where your sure no one will find you. That's the challenging part.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I wanted to try one more time to figure out a way to live. My therapist wants me to do a partial hospitalization program and I finally agreed. I can't start it until next Thursday. I haven't been to work all week. I've been simmering in my depression. I don't want to try anymore. The only "help" is to go to the hospital which just makes everything worse. I don't even know my wife's work schedule because it's never set so I don't know how I'm either going to get through these days or figure out when and where to go to have the SN. I am freaking out. It hurts so badly.

I wanted to try to stay until after January 7th to celebrate my wife's birthday. Now I really don't know how I'm going to do that.