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PrincessInWhite

PrincessInWhite

I just want to sell out my funeral
Feb 21, 2019
648
My options are:

- my bedroom (I do not share a room but bear in mind I do share a house)
- outside in a field (however the weather will be quite cold and there is no 100% guarantee of privacy, same with house)
- a hotel for the night (also no guarantee privacy if the tank makes noise)

I know I've posted so much here and I feel like I've been here going in circles SO LONG going back and forth between methods and trying to nail details down but my executive function is just so bad, I can't organize or plan anything properly. And just the endless grief over knowing my life is over and feeling my heart break over and over when I think of leaving everything I love even though I can't enjoy literally any of it anymore anyway (not to mention I've lost most of what I love besides a handful of people I can count on one hand, that's all I have left, and I drag them down immensely.) I am 100% certain I want peace but I have also never been good with endings my whole life.

Sorry for the rant, but yeah. Exit bag locations. What are your thoughts on these locations? I know I always say this but please PM me if you have knowledge on this topic or have researched this method.
 
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veniceofdetroit

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Dec 18, 2021
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My options are:

- my bedroom (I do not share a room but bear in mind I do share a house)
- outside in a field (however the weather will be quite cold and there is no 100% guarantee of privacy, same with house)
- a hotel for the night (also no guarantee privacy if the tank makes noise)

I know I've posted so much here and I feel like I've been here going in circles SO LONG going back and forth between methods and trying to nail details down but my executive function is just so bad, I can't organize or plan anything properly. And just the endless grief over knowing my life is over and feeling my heart break over and over when I think of leaving everything I love even though I can't enjoy literally any of it anymore anyway (not to mention I've lost most of what I love besides a handful of people I can count on one hand, that's all I have left, and I drag them down immensely.) I am 100% certain I want peace but I have also never been good with endings my whole life.

Sorry for the rant, but yeah. Exit bag locations. What are your thoughts on these locations? I know I always say this but please PM me if you have knowledge on this topic or have researched this method.
Not sure how to pm here (I'm new), but I just went through this and had difficulty doing it outside and wondering if a more controlled environment would have worked best.

Will definitely answering any questions you have. I might choose hanging now that I don't have my materials and almost out of money
 
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Interloper

Interloper

Jul 23, 2021
691
I've narrowed it down to just my bedroom really; familiar environment is probably the biggest factor. When I booked a hotel room for 2 days just to get a feel, I never really felt comfortable, I also have to get the tank in there and if a staff member spots me they might find it suspicious. In the forest next to a creek or river, like you said it's pretty cold right now and it's also much further out, meaning I'd need some cart to get the tank there in one piece. :ahhha:

But I also share a house, so I have to do it when people are out of the house for multiple days which is unlikely in the coming months.
 
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PrincessInWhite

PrincessInWhite

I just want to sell out my funeral
Feb 21, 2019
648
I've narrowed it down to just my bedroom really; familiar environment is probably the biggest factor. When I booked a hotel room for 2 days just to get a feel, I never really felt comfortable, I also have to get the tank in there and if a staff member spots me they might find it suspicious. In the forest next to a creek or river, like you said it's pretty cold right now and it's also much further out, meaning I'd need some cart to get the tank there in one piece. :ahhha:

But I also share a house, so I have to do it when people are out of the house for multiple days which is unlikely in the coming months.
yes exactly, that's my fear for the hotel, getting it in there. I do agree the outside thing really isn't gonna work especially at this time of year. It was more a desperate last measure. I know I can definitely get some alone time in my home, I just feel sick over knowing what my loved ones will discover when I return. But I'm also a huge burden to them anyways, so me exiting by any means possible is necessary.
Not sure how to pm here (I'm new), but I just went through this and had difficulty doing it outside and wondering if a more controlled environment would have worked best.

Will definitely answering any questions you have. I might choose hanging now that I don't have my materials and almost out of money
that's too funny, I responded to your post without realizing you answered mine! Will PM you <3 edited: your profile says you limit who can view it and there is no option to PM you :( maybe try taking the profile off private?
 
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Interloper

Interloper

Jul 23, 2021
691
yes exactly, that's my fear for the hotel, getting it in there. I do agree the outside thing really isn't gonna work especially at this time of year. It was more a desperate last measure. I know I can definitely get some alone time in my home, I just feel sick over knowing what my loved ones will discover when I return. But I'm also a huge burden to them anyways, so me exiting by any means possible is necessary.

Yeah I get that, I am probably going to send a scheduled email to my local police department. Maybe like a day after, so I can still cancel should my attempt fail.
 
Grumpy Bear

Grumpy Bear

People are poison
Jul 21, 2021
150
As for getting a tank into a hotel maybe a large duffel bag would help.
 
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Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
308
I wouldn't worry about the sounds in a hotel. I used to travel for work and I stayed in hotels more than my own bed. I've heard some really weird sounds coming from the other room, and no one did anything. I think if it's like a Motel 6 (and not some Hilton or other fancy place) the going mentality is "That's not my business."
 
LADY007

LADY007

Specialist
Feb 25, 2020
373
My options are:

- my bedroom (I do not share a room but bear in mind I do share a house)
- outside in a field (however the weather will be quite cold and there is no 100% guarantee of privacy, same with house)
- a hotel for the night (also no guarantee privacy if the tank makes noise)

I know I've posted so much here and I feel like I've been here going in circles SO LONG going back and forth between methods and trying to nail details down but my executive function is just so bad, I can't organize or plan anything properly. And just the endless grief over knowing my life is over and feeling my heart break over and over when I think of leaving everything I love even though I can't enjoy literally any of it anymore anyway (not to mention I've lost most of what I love besides a handful of people I can count on one hand, that's all I have left, and I drag them down immensely.) I am 100% certain I want peace but I have also never been good with endings my whole life.

Sorry for the rant, but yeah. Exit bag locations. What are your thoughts on these locations? I know I always say this but please PM me if you have knowledge on this topic or have researched this method.
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