Where do the people who go to Switzerland etc get the guts?

[CiproKilledMe]

I've watched many videos of people voluntarily ending their lives and they all seem so incredibly brave. Some of them are even excited about it. Then there's me...I'm being forced to ctb because my body is no longer inhabitable, but I DO NOT WANT TO DIE and it's causing me to have massive fits of panic and anxiety. I didn't want to die in a panic, but I don't see how anyone can possibly go about this calmly. How do those people do it!? And how do I get myself to settle the F down, mentally? It almost seems like you'd have to be out of your right mind or in some surreal altered state of mind in order to actually go through with it. I should add, I think part of why I'm having a harder time than many of the people in those videos is that I'm not considered terminally ill (cruelly, as I'm in agonizing physical pain 24/7) and I'm also quite young, having not gotten to do all of the things I'd hoped to do in life. Perhaps if I was 80 years old having lived a full life and having some terminal illness nipping at my heals, this would all be a bit easier.

Also as an aside, I'm very scared that N won't be as peaceful as everyone makes it out to be. I wish I'd have planned ahead better and gotten myself a nitrogen tank instead. That looks super quick and is supposedly not only painless, but euphoric. So now I have anxiety over that too!

 

[Foreversad]

Its nothing about being brave going to Switzerland .it couldn't be more easy .peacefull death on demand .brave is to find the guts ans jump off a 10floor building

 

[Hattywacky]

I guess if you've got the go ahead from a doctor etc it's more acceptable, you can also talk about it's with loved ones cause they can't stop you anyway. I'm sure it must remove a lot of the emotional hurdles.

 

[BeyondGoodNEvil]

honestly theirs like a stage to it
first you accept that your ok with it u dont fear whats coming,most get through that
second is the actually event hard to actually do it cause all your fear signals just kick in.
thirdly you accept it and just go with it
also motherfuker you got Nembutal.the worst pain you will get is a chance of vomiting.nothing in your body gets affected its like being under anesthesia and never waking up.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think many people have anxiety about it all because of the survival instinct, we are programmed to live and survive. It is quite normal I think. Personally euthanasia is my ideal way of going. Many people probably feel calmer as they spend time getting their head around the fact that they will die and they have been suffering for a prolonged period of time so they are desperate to escape their bodies.

 

[CiproKilledMe]

Its nothing about being brave going to Switzerland .it couldn't be more easy .peacefull death on demand .brave is to find the guts ans jump off a 10floor building

CTB in any fashion takes bravery. Those people in the videos never even hesitate to toss back the N drink or flip the IV switch! They're always gung-ho and ready to go. I'd be sitting there shaking and crying and hesitating if it were me. I guess my brain isn't like other people's.

 

[Foreversad]

CTB in any fashion takes bravery. Those people in the videos never even hesitate to toss back the N drink or flip the IV switch! They're always gung-ho and ready to go. I'd be sitting there shaking and crying and hesitating if it were me. I guess my brain isn't like other people's.

Its the damn si instinct and the fear of the unknown .for everyone ..
Still if i had to choose id choose the wonderland rather than having to jump such a height

 

[CiproKilledMe]

honestly theirs like a stage to it
first you accept that your ok with it u dont fear whats coming,most get through that
second is the actually event hard to actually do it cause all your fear signals just kick in.
thirdly you accept it and just go with it
also motherfuker you got Nembutal.the worst pain you will get is a chance of vomiting.nothing in your body gets affected its like being under anesthesia and never waking up.

I hope you're right about the N! I've often *thought* I've accepted my fate (that I'm going to have to ctb in order to get the hell out of this torturous body) but now that it's close I'm an anxious wreck because I guess I always thought in the back of my head that somehow it wouldn't actually happen. But it's going to have to happen--I have no other choice. I am cornered.

Its the damn si instinct and the fear of the unknown .for everyone ..
Still if i had to choose id choose the wonderland rather than having to jump such a height

I've actually jumped out of an airplane once so somehow I had the bravery to do that (with a parachute of course), but this is a whole different ballgame. I keep hoping I'll have a heart attack or stroke or something that'll just take me out so I don't have to do it by my own hand, but I would never get so lucky.

 

[Foreversad]

I hope you're right about the N! I've often *thought* I've accepted my fate (that I'm going to have to ctb in order to get the hell out of this torturous body) but now that it's close I'm an anxious wreck because I guess I always thought in the back of my head that somehow it wouldn't actually happen. But it's going to have to happen--I have no other choice. I am cornered.



I've actually jumped out of an airplane once so somehow I had the bravery to do that (with a parachute of course), but this is a whole different ballgame. I keep hoping I'll have a heart attack or stroke or something that'll just take me out so I don't have to do it by my own hand, but I would never get so lucky.

Nah ..we all know why we are here

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I hope you're right about the N! I've often *thought* I've accepted my fate (that I'm going to have to ctb in order to get the hell out of this torturous body) but now that it's close I'm an anxious wreck because I guess I always thought in the back of my head that somehow it wouldn't actually happen. But it's going to have to happen--I have no other choice. I am cornered.



I've actually jumped out of an airplane once so somehow I had the bravery to do that (with a parachute of course), but this is a whole different ballgame. I keep hoping I'll have a heart attack or stroke or something that'll just take me out so I don't have to do it by my own hand, but I would never get so lucky.

Heart attacks, stroke are fucking nasty. People can exist for many years after one. My neighbor across the street is a stroke victim. She doesn't talk much, can't even hold a drink and sip it. Has someone come in and take care of her during the day when her husband works.

I'm a longterm smoker. There's no way in fuck I want a heart attack or stroke. It would limit my ability to escape existence.

 

[CiproKilledMe]

Heart attacks, stroke are fucking nasty. People can exist for many years after one. My neighbor across the street is a stroke victim. She doesn't talk much, can't even hold a drink and sip it. Has someone come in and take care of her during the day when her husband works.

I'm a longterm smoker. There's no way in fuck I want a heart attack or stroke. It would limit my ability to escape existence.

I guess I should have specified: A FATAL stroke or heart attack! My worst nightmare is having something partial happen to me and then become unable to ctb on my own accord.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I've watched many videos of people voluntarily ending their lives and they all seem so incredibly brave. Some of them are even excited about it. Then there's me...I'm being forced to ctb because my body is no longer inhabitable, but I DO NOT WANT TO DIE and it's causing me to have massive fits of panic and anxiety. I didn't want to die in a panic, but I don't see how anyone can possibly go about this calmly. How do those people do it!? And how do I get myself to settle the F down, mentally? It almost seems like you'd have to be out of your right mind or in some surreal altered state of mind in order to actually go through with it. I should add, I think part of why I'm having a harder time than many of the people in those videos is that I'm not considered terminally ill (cruelly, as I'm in agonizing physical pain 24/7) and I'm also quite young, having not gotten to do all of the things I'd hoped to do in life. Perhaps if I was 80 years old having lived a full life and having some terminal illness nipping at my heals, this would all be a bit easier.

Also as an aside, I'm very scared that N won't be as peaceful as everyone makes it out to be. I wish I'd have planned ahead better and gotten myself a nitrogen tank instead. That looks super quick and is supposedly not only painless, but euphoric. So now I have anxiety over that t

I guess I should have specified: A FATAL stroke or heart attack! My worst nightmare is having something partial happen to me and then become unable to ctb on my own accord.

Do you suffer from bad effects from Cipro? My parent had a really bad reaction to it. I share your anxieties about this...I can't get Rx for good meds to help with anxiety and sleep. Take care.

 

[CiproKilledMe]

Do you suffer from bad effects from Cipro? My parent had a really bad reaction to it. I share your anxieties about this...I can't get Rx for good meds to help with anxiety and sleep. Take care.

Yes, I've been completely disabled for over a decade now thanks to Cipro. It completely ruined my previously-healthy body. I am in intractable pain 24/7 and "live" in bed. Beyond my wildest nightmares.

 

[greyhound]

Yeah it definitely takes guts. Fear of what it's like to die, fear of the unknown. I am in a similar boat. Youngish, body is not livable but still have many things I'd like to do in life if it was. I have also wished to just die randomly / suddenly so I don't have to do it myself. I guess just becoming more and more resigned to my fate is making me more calm about it. When it seems like there might be a chance to continue on my mind will just latch onto that.

 

[CiproKilledMe]

When it seems like there might be a chance to continue on my mind will just latch onto that.

Same, only to eventually be mentally slammed back down by the reality that I can't live in this body anymore.

 

[hermes]

The ones who are going to Switzerland are either suffering serious diseases or too old & weak.

The old peoples' suffering will only increase with time or with newer health issues

Instead of suffering more , CTB with professional help is a no brainer for them.

 

[mini_weeny]

There are only two ways to die in life, catastrophic disease and catastrophic trauma both are awful so the best option is the clinic.

 

[Dee38]

Many that go to Switzerland are terminally ill and know they are going to die, often fearing a prolonged and painful dying experience. They can't change the fact that they are going to die. They can however control the way in which they die. To end their lives in a peaceful and dignified manner versus prolonged pain and suffering--it's basically the lesser of two evils.