Thank you for taking the time to answer and I'm sorry to hear about your experience. It's so hard when you were almost there... I do wonder what made it so that you almost died on that amount though since the pph recommends 8 gram, but maybe the pph just wants you to be on the safe side. Take care x
It could have been any number of reasons, I did not really think about it that much at the time (perhaps I should have in hindsight). I hadn't even read the PPH til earlier this month when I came across this site. I imagine the recommended 8g would be more than enough to make it a 100% certainty.
I had only done a bit of research prior to trying, so I knew that Amitriptyline was the most lethal of the various pain meds I'd been prescribed.
I guess it is one of those things though; everyone has a different physiology so what might be a lethal dose for one person might not hit the spot for another.
Like I mentioned earlier, I was profoundly underweight and had not eaten for nearly a week prior to ODing. Also, there is the potential that (for me), having hypermobility syndrome might mean I have a weaker heart than an otherwise healthy person. It's a condition that affects joints and ligaments but can also cause cardiovascular problems. I guess I'll never know.
It is a real shame that I came so close. Had I not been resuscitated I believe I would have made the journey.
I wish you every success in finding the things you need to complete your journey too. ♡ x