When your attempt fails, how do you feel?

[ctb-soon]

My first real attempt was full suspension hanging when I was a teenager. The knot let loose

I can remember feeling both regret and embarrassment for my inability to pull it off.

But it ingrained the thought that one day in the future I would make another attempt. It's not if but when.

So I have prepared. I have a plan, a method that has been tested. Right now I would not have to think "how" to do it. The tools are already there

All I have to wait for the wave of urges that would take me there

I could be ready in an hour.