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AintNoWayOut

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Jan 6, 2020
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your pain is no longer bothering you, you're relaxed in bed at your old house, and you have a girl you like cuddling up next to you. you feel like a king, for once things are going great and you're experiencing the good side of life.

and then in less than a second, BOOM. reality hits. you wake up and it wasnt real, you're still a virgin loser in tremendous physical pain with no girlfriend, no friends, no enjoyment, no life. and you have to get out of bed and face the cold world yet again. i wish i could just live in a dream world forever, this physical world isnt fair. who else relates?
 
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Jan 26, 2020
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your pain is no longer bothering you, you're relaxed in bed at your old house, and you have a girl you like cuddling up next to you. you feel like a king, for once things are going great and you're experiencing the good side of life.

and then in less than a second, BOOM. reality hits. you wake up and it wasnt real, you're still a virgin loser in tremendous physical pain with no girlfriend, no friends, no enjoyment, no life. and you have to get out of bed and face the cold world yet again. i wish i could just live in a dream world forever, this physical world isnt fair. who else relates?
Was like that maybe when I was 14-16 years old. Now I practically do not have dreams. If I have, they are usually neutral or just strange.
In some dreams I was loved, had kisses and so on... Even had real friends, but then I was waking up and taking a red pill.
 
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BPDbitch

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Nov 10, 2019
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Last night I had a dream that I was still at high school with my friends, and when I woke up and realised that, nope, I'm just a sad adult, I was bitterly disappointed.

Funnily, I hated school a lot when I was there. Looking back I didn't realise how lucky I was.
 
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pole

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when ur really in a deep-sleep, and feel like you're in another reality, happy and actually enjoying urself.

aaaanddddd, then you wake up and it takes you a second to realize, that was all just a dream and you're back to being in hell.

:(
 
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5:45AM

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I've had some success with lucid dreaming and while it is an incredible experience, honestly it makes the transition to waking life so much worse. I can usually tell when I'm close to waking up (there are common signs across all of my dreams) and it's so painful.
 
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AintNoWayOut

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Jan 6, 2020
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when ur really in a deep-sleep, and feel like you're in another reality, happy and actually enjoying urself.

aaaanddddd, then you wake up and it takes you a second to realize, that was all just a dream and you're back to being in hell.

:(

i felt so content, like such a damn stud, like things were getting good for me. and within a fucking millisecond of waking up i wanted someone to shoot me in the head. honestly i'd almost rather have a nightmare. waking up from one nightmare to another isnt as much of a shock and tease as dreaming of a great life and then waking up to a miserable one.

Last night I had a dream that I was still at high school with my friends, and when I woke up and realised that, nope, I'm just a sad adult, I was bitterly disappointed.

Funnily, I hated school a lot when I was there. Looking back I didn't realise how lucky I was.

i have those dreams too occasionally. makes me realize how much i took for granted, back when i had those friends around and my life wasnt ruled by pain. it makes me want to die more than anything to think of those times and how much better things could've turned out had life not screwed me over.

Was like that maybe when I was 14-16 years old. Now I practically do not have dreams. If I have, they are usually neutral or just strange.
In some dreams I was loved, had kisses and so on... Even had real friends, but then I was waking up and taking a red pill.

it doesnt happen crazy often, but it happened today which is why i brought it up. its been messing with my mind. and yeah, the feeling of going from cuddling with your cute coworker in bed to being a loner in crippling pain in a FLASH is the worst fucking thing. reality hit like a damn truck, making me realize i'll likely never get to experience intimacy like that.
 
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KiraLittleOwl

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Jan 25, 2019
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I can't relate because I don't gave good dreams anymore
 
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homebound

fallen angel
Jan 19, 2020
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for the past few years all i've been having is awful dreams. as much as i hate being awake, i am often too scared to fall asleep because of them. i use to keep a dream journal but after filling a few it got too overwhelming to keep up with.
 
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Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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I've not been dreaming as much in general lately. But when I do I'm happy to have any kind of dream. Even nightmares can be fun to me. But then again I'm obsessed with anything horror related.
 
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your pain is no longer bothering you, you're relaxed in bed at your old house, and you have a girl you like cuddling up next to you. you feel like a king, for once things are going great and you're experiencing the good side of life.

and then in less than a second, BOOM. reality hits. you wake up and it wasnt real, you're still a virgin loser in tremendous physical pain with no girlfriend, no friends, no enjoyment, no life. and you have to get out of bed and face the cold world yet again. i wish i could just live in a dream world forever, this physical world isnt fair. who else relates?
Sure. There's also a few seconds of time when any chronic pain you are feeling is gone. These days I suffer from exhaustion, due to physical illness and lack of sleep. Come the morning I long to continue sleeping but I am forced to get up to deal with certain physical issues and medication. I now have a period of 1-2 hours every morning where I reside in the comforting land of Hypnogogia. I so want to stay there every morning. But no, I'm not allowed.
 
Mooshi

Mooshi

Across space and across time, I will be there.
Jan 13, 2020
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I've not been dreaming as much in general lately. But when I do I'm happy to have any kind of dream. Even nightmares can be fun to me. But then again I'm obsessed with anything horror related.

I feel the same way, I love anything horror related too
 
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terry_a_davis

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Dec 28, 2019
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It's the opposite for me OP I dream about my ex's, which may or may not be a good dream, I don't like it I wish my dreams would stop reminding me of them.
 
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SugarbushMtn

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Dec 15, 2019
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I can tell when life gets bad as I have wonderful dreams of my past life when I was having fun. They are very impactful and get me through some days. My brain working overtime to make me happy..
 
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Antibody246

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Mar 26, 2020
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you read me like a book. that is why I am taking the benzo's.
 

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