Discussion When you envision the imagery and feeling of the moment you might just do CTB, how exactly is that played out in your mind and heart?

[meeks]

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[アホペンギン]

When i'm imagining how i ctb, its always in a hotel, i'm calling my friends while i'm still alive and telling them goodbye and apologizing because our friendship is gonna end with my death. After i die, i imagine the hotel staff will find me after a day or two but i will be dead by then. They'll notify my family that i'm dead and then my family would finally take me seriously, but im dead so its of no use. (I'm planning to use SN)

 

[lylas]

Vertigo feeling, like what you get when pushing yourself to ask someone a difficult question or pushing past some other inhibition. And then the realization that its happening, past the point of no return. I think about final phonecalls and messages. It would be nice to fall asleep hearing someone say kind words to me.

 

[alonely]

I often imagine doing it with a shotgun, more of an intrusive thought though like when I'm lying down to go to sleep. That or just stabbing my neck. Neither of those are my chosen method though.

My chosen method I imagine more intentionally, going to get my materials, setting up my N2, making the exit bag, positioning and securing everything, and following the procedure of turning on the gas, hyperventilating, pulling the bag down. Feels very mechanical and emotionless when I imagine it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think with more instant methods like firearms from what I'm aware there isn't the chance for one to comprehend that they are dying, like one dies instantly. But I imagine a slow, more prolonged dying process to be experiencing losing consciousness before everything stops, like with SN you hear of people experiencing symptoms before they pass out and become completely unaware. Honestly I don't know how I will die but I have imagined different suicide methods and what it would be like based on what I've read.