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HelpDoesNotExist
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- Jul 10, 2024
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There is no point in even talking about it with anyone else unless they're in the exact same situation.
They tell you you can't feel guilty forever even when anything else would be insane. That it's possible to stop wondering how that person's doing
And then they insist on arguing you're just depressed or that you're not trying hard enough not to think about it, ostensibly because they care when really it's just their job because they spawned you
Once you make the one person who did care stop, and know it's your fault, it's impossible to care about yourself.
Why should I appreciate "help" that is just pills that don't work or make it worse, useless advice on things they dont understand or useless therapy or threats of hospital (despite you telling them over and over what can happen in those places) or restrictions of finances so you can't buy the one temporary escape that ever works? Why should I care what happens after I'm dead, if they're upset? Life's not fair. I didn't ask to be born.
They aren't trying to protect me. If they cared they'd let me go, because that's what's really best for me.
The doctors and hospitals all just want to exploit you for money.
They tell you you can't feel guilty forever even when anything else would be insane. That it's possible to stop wondering how that person's doing
And then they insist on arguing you're just depressed or that you're not trying hard enough not to think about it, ostensibly because they care when really it's just their job because they spawned you
Once you make the one person who did care stop, and know it's your fault, it's impossible to care about yourself.
Why should I appreciate "help" that is just pills that don't work or make it worse, useless advice on things they dont understand or useless therapy or threats of hospital (despite you telling them over and over what can happen in those places) or restrictions of finances so you can't buy the one temporary escape that ever works? Why should I care what happens after I'm dead, if they're upset? Life's not fair. I didn't ask to be born.
They aren't trying to protect me. If they cared they'd let me go, because that's what's really best for me.
The doctors and hospitals all just want to exploit you for money.