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Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
If things don't go as planned, the next one will be my last
 
piddincir

piddincir

Student
Nov 6, 2023
182
This one is my last. Im doing it for my family , give them one last Christmas with some nice memories of me as I know how devastating my loss will be on the
 
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trashhologram

trashhologram

⚰ Baby, let me decompose ⚰
Dec 15, 2023
483
I think the next year will be my last one too unless something big happens. I've decided that 2024 will be my last year and I will fucking live it! I've been just existing for way too long. I'm gonna have an amazing year and then either recover or die. We'll see.
 
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piddincir

piddincir

Student
Nov 6, 2023
182
I think the next year will be my last one too unless something big happens. I've decided that 2024 will be my last year and I will fucking live it! I've been just existing for way too long. I'm gonna have an amazing year and then either recover or die. We'll see.
I would love to try this but I feel too broken. I want to have one awesome year so I don't die in so much pain and alone but I just don't think I have it in me .

Hope you get the 2024 you want my friend and best wishes
 
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trashhologram

trashhologram

⚰ Baby, let me decompose ⚰
Dec 15, 2023
483
I would love to try this but I feel too broken. I want to have one awesome year so I don't die in so much pain and alone but I just don't think I have it in me .

Hope you get the 2024 you want my friend and best wishes
I'm quite broken too but as long as I have my DOC's I'll be fine lol. And my cats.
 
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starrchaoz

starrchaoz

Another six months, I'll be unknown.
Nov 24, 2023
39
This one should be my last one if everything goes according to plan
 
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Never know but I'm fairly confident it's this one.
 
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until death

maybe it's time to say goodbye
Dec 12, 2023
126
I hate Christmas
 
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Sluggish_Slump

Sluggish_Slump

Specialist
Mar 29, 2023
300
Had my last christmas 15-ish years ago in Canada and I won't have another one because it's not celebrated where I live now. So 2008-9 lol
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,860
I don't know honestly, hopefully not many more but of course it isn't like we can just choose to easily die in peace. It's terrifying how this existence could potentially continue for decades, it'd be such a relief to have the option to fall into an dreamless and eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about. What comforts me about ceasing to exist is that by that point existence won't be my concern anymore and I won't have the ability to suffer.
 
Aim

Aim

🤍
Sep 12, 2023
945
This one was my last Christmas 😔
 
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Freimann

Freimann

Member
Dec 23, 2023
39
I hope this one. But it all depends on whether I can actually put my hands on a gun. SN is just too messy, I don't live alone, so I don't want to throw up or make noise. N is expensive as hell, night-night is my second way to go, but it gives me a shit ton of agony when I feel the head pressure and the carotid pulsing.

Hoping to get my .38 cal revolver soon enough, I'll just go wandering the streets at night and eventually shoot myself in the temple, brain stem or heart. The first two options seem better, but they can fail, the heart shot would just make me lose enough blood, but since it's going to be on the street, I might be rescued soon. That if I don't miss the heart or anything. I wonder if a lung puncture would guarantee death too.
 
tsykoais

tsykoais

i can't drown my demons they know how to swim
Apr 9, 2023
138
i think maybe this one or 2025, i wanna die on an even date because i was born on one. i.e 2.26.2026.
 
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experimentee

Member
Sep 10, 2023
14
I don't celebrate Christmas, but this is the last one I will spend alive. i'll be dead long before the next one.
 
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Soc

Soc

Member
Dec 9, 2023
72
I'm planning on this being my last. I'm thinking about CTB every day and just need the right place to start preparing myself and my things for it. A year is enough time I think before my life gets any worse.
 
natthebrat

natthebrat

only help i want is with ctb
Jul 9, 2023
189
This one, I hope. I want to ctb on Dec 22 of next year (the day before my 28th birthday)
 
FailerQt.

FailerQt.

Crazy bish
Mar 17, 2023
105
Hopefully, this one was my last. I already have everything I need since early November and I can't bring myself to do it. Idk if it's SI or convincing myself that things will eventually get better or both, but I really hope I'll be able to overcome whatever it is and finally find peace.
 
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notindanger

notindanger

Experienced
Oct 7, 2023
223
I really hope it's this one. Cant ever be sure though, no matter how many times i try to ctb i always fail.
 
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IsThisEverything

IsThisEverything

Member
Nov 1, 2023
95
I think and hope that this one was my last. I'm planning to CTB soon if all goes to plan. Christmas means nothing to me now.
 
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LunarLynx

LunarLynx

Just a lost spirit searching freedom
Dec 18, 2023
118
This one was my last, SN in on the way. every other medication is ready. I just need to wait a couple more weeks
 
AnxietyHangover

AnxietyHangover

Empty, medicated shell of a human
Aug 20, 2022
251
This one was my last. I have the sn, the only thing needed is to move out on my own which will happen in the first part of next year. I'm excited and looking forward to it.
 
CannabisMuncher

CannabisMuncher

You can call me kilometers, cuz ima kms
Dec 23, 2023
82
hopefully this one. I plan on ending it by next year

( edit to clarify: I plan on ending my life before 2025, but who knows? Maybe earlier.. )
 
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