ButterToast
Liar who can't separate lies from reality
- Aug 11, 2023
- 57
I have what many would consider as a 'good family', i've always been grateful for them.
Recently though, they have been more of an obstacle to my personal development than support, suffice to say I probably went backwards when with them VS when im not. Some members can never say anything positive and always say and do things that bring me down, shit talk me, even in front of other people. Another doesn't understand my needs and always want me to go 'their way' and I'd lose so much because i had to follow 'their way'. Another wants me to do X but get mad at me when I actually do it (mild example: you gotta work hard, long hours + 6-7 days a week) then got mad at me for not hanging out with my friends or getting a gf (tf am i supposed to manage all of those when i barely got time to rest and take a breather.)
Then there's one who always cause issue, making every small problem a big one and would get hella mad if they don't get what they want. There's another one who would cause immense stress and unrest at home, very moody and would get angry at the smallest things.
In my whole life, I always look at my parent's patience as their greatest trait, now i understand its their greatest downfall.
For me? idk, im silently seething, not a good coping mechanism but i cant afford any other way. I'm slowly losing my mind and I just want to be independent as soon as possible and get the fuck out of here. it's been a good run, but the great ship once rule the ocean has shown its aging and broken equipment, becoming a hellish prison. Not saying that its the worst family anyone would have, but I feel like I could've done much more, achieve much more, be much happier if i just get the fuck out.
Recently though, they have been more of an obstacle to my personal development than support, suffice to say I probably went backwards when with them VS when im not. Some members can never say anything positive and always say and do things that bring me down, shit talk me, even in front of other people. Another doesn't understand my needs and always want me to go 'their way' and I'd lose so much because i had to follow 'their way'. Another wants me to do X but get mad at me when I actually do it (mild example: you gotta work hard, long hours + 6-7 days a week) then got mad at me for not hanging out with my friends or getting a gf (tf am i supposed to manage all of those when i barely got time to rest and take a breather.)
Then there's one who always cause issue, making every small problem a big one and would get hella mad if they don't get what they want. There's another one who would cause immense stress and unrest at home, very moody and would get angry at the smallest things.
In my whole life, I always look at my parent's patience as their greatest trait, now i understand its their greatest downfall.
For me? idk, im silently seething, not a good coping mechanism but i cant afford any other way. I'm slowly losing my mind and I just want to be independent as soon as possible and get the fuck out of here. it's been a good run, but the great ship once rule the ocean has shown its aging and broken equipment, becoming a hellish prison. Not saying that its the worst family anyone would have, but I feel like I could've done much more, achieve much more, be much happier if i just get the fuck out.
