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glowing.purple.aura

glowing.purple.aura

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Sep 15, 2025
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first of all, no the fuck it won't hoe

second, no future is worth the amount of suffering i've gone through (and continue to go through every day)

and not too often but every once in a while life decides to torture me even more by making me think this statement might be true (as you can guess though it always turns out to be temporary happiness)

But seriously, do you think I'm living or should want to live because of some false hope, yeah okay…
 
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AngelTear

AngelTear

Dead before 30
Oct 27, 2025
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first of all, no the fuck it won't hoe

second, no future is worth the amount of suffering i've gone through (and continue to go through every day)

and not too often but every once in a while life decides to torture me even more by making me think this statement might be true (as you can guess though it always turns out to be temporary happiness)

But seriously, do you think I'm living or should want to live because of some false hope, yeah okay…
Felt this one, I agree with everything you said wholeheartedly. People who say that always makes me feel more insane like I'm being gaslit (I am being gaslit). The worst part to me is that people who say that never offer actual help that could heavily minimize your suffering, it's just words and words don't do shit.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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It is so frustrating. I might not mind it so much if they said 'might'. It 'might' get better. I also don't mind it being pointed out that if we don't try to change things at all- they likely will just stay as they are. Life does (in my experience) require vast amounts of effort to get anywhere. But, I know what you mean. To insist it will get better is so naive. I'm 45 now. So- I can at least argue that... When? When will life feel ok?

Of course- that creates problems of its own because, on the face of it, I'm not sure what actually is wrong with my life- comparatively. People would point out that (I worked hard) to get the job I wanted. That we have freedom to do what we want. But, I suppose that's the difficulty really. I don't really want anything now! Only really a dread that things may get worse. I want to be out before they do. I want out because I'm tired of having to work the whole time on this and that to ensure things get no worse! Life is like that damn spinning plate routine.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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I would reply : " it won't get better but it will get a trillion times worse for me. and It could get worse for u or any human, so bad , much worse than the worst he'll u can imagine by a quintilion times "
 
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CicisDoingUnwell

CicisDoingUnwell

𝐓𝐨𝐨 𝐌𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐓𝐨 𝐃𝐨. <𝟑
Aug 8, 2025
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Don't even get me started 💀💀💀💀

I said the first time with 11 that I want to CTB. And at least every 2 weeks I think about it. I tried and failed.

But besides that - The fact that I got SA'ed last year showed me how gOod ANd amZinG life is, of course. :)

Understand you 1000%.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Right there with you. While I admit it can, and sometimes does, get better for some people, it is not a guarantee for everyone and society needs to acknowledge that. I was told this BS when I was 15 and here I am 25 years later regretting staying alive this entire time. I tried, but I really wish I could have died decades ago to avoid all the suffering I have experienced.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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and not too often but every once in a while life decides to torture me even more by making me think this statement might be true (as you can guess though it always turns out to be temporary happiness)
Dealing with this today. Had some peace last night. Now this morning back in the sewer with this life.
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
92
Exactly. My crippling trauma isn't going anywhere, and my chronic illnesses will only get worse. Additionally, idk I think it's kind of crazy to think someone has to stake their whole existence on the idea life may or may not get better. It really isn't a guarantee, and some people don't like gambling.
 
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ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
340
I've been in particularly bad shape this week and my husband said I need to talk about it. After a couple days of telling him no, I finally said I don't want to live. Then he yelled at me, told me that's not what he wanted to hear. I further said that I think it's only getting worse and worse and that the best in life is over. He disagreed and said he's sorry I feel that way and he thinks it will get better.

Yup, I really need to talk, get it out, and communicate. Just as long as it fits your narrative! If I dare be honest well then the response is just disgust and denial. No, nothing is ever getting better, idiot!
 
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