Venting when people are expecting nothing pf you

[princeseadove]

Everyone has given up on me in some front. I was a smart student, I do everything I can and should… I'm not a troublemaker, I don't do any drugs or drink alcohol. I don't badmouth anyone, I always keep to myself. And to a fault, I become a dormat. But everyone has given up on me. My issues have become so severe I'm basically socially dead. My issues are too much… a therapist and the counselor have given up on me. Told my parents they can no longer take responsibility. The principal too, to be fair her father had passed away… but even after I texted her urgently a year later I needed help with my psychosis… it was of no avail. I'm socially dead because of my autism and chronic depression… BPD too. I feel too much so I just shut down completely fron social interaction… I trust too easily and give sexond chances, so when I'm hurt again I can only blame myself. I don't have anyone who I can talk to. When Youre always sad, it becomes the norm so people checking up on you. I am, tired.

The only comfort I have is my story.. i have been thinking about it a little more. I hope to get it done so I can just CTB. I am tired.

 

[Realog11]

What will be your ctb method

 

[Dinorun]

Hi with how generic it sounds I just wanted to tell you, you are not alone in this


I also always did "what was expected of me" was way too trusting and really tried to be therefor evryone but at the end of the day no one ever really cared about me and i see how carrying that weight all alone sucks having to mask sadness and burdens with no one to actually share with can be so painful

 

[MicahBell]

Everyone has given up on me in some front. I was a smart student, I do everything I can and should… I'm not a troublemaker, I don't do any drugs or drink alcohol. I don't badmouth anyone, I always keep to myself. And to a fault, I become a dormat. But everyone has given up on me. My issues have become so severe I'm basically socially dead. My issues are too much… a therapist and the counselor have given up on me. Told my parents they can no longer take responsibility. The principal too, to be fair her father had passed away… but even after I texted her urgently a year later I needed help with my psychosis… it was of no avail. I'm socially dead because of my autism and chronic depression… BPD too. I feel too much so I just shut down completely fron social interaction… I trust too easily and give sexond chances, so when I'm hurt again I can only blame myself. I don't have anyone who I can talk to. When Youre always sad, it becomes the norm so people checking up on you. I am, tired.

The only comfort I have is my story.. i have been thinking about it a little more. I hope to get it done so I can just CTB. I am tired.

Its hard. I was smart in school too, antisocial cause of mental illness. no one seemed to notice as my grades plummeted until eventually they all just seemed to give up, stop offering help, stopped offering anything. theres no two ways about it, it feels like being abandoned.

 

[princeseadove]

What will be your ctb method

I'm not sure, I'll be moving soon but I have prepped up preparations for hanging.. but since I'll have more access to stuff like SNS than I'll probably do just that.

Hi with how generic it sounds I just wanted to tell you, you are not alone in this


I also always did "what was expected of me" was way too trusting and really tried to be therefor evryone but at the end of the day no one ever really cared about me and i see how carrying that weight all alone sucks having to mask sadness and burdens with no one to actually share with can be so painful

Thank you, it is so so hard. And to even try and make yourself understandable is even harder. My disorders reslly kill any attempts made

Its hard. I was smart in school too, antisocial cause of mental illness. no one seemed to notice as my grades plummeted until eventually they all just seemed to give up, stop offering help, stopped offering anything. theres no two ways about it, it feels like being abandoned.

They had given up even before my grades slipped. It's just.. so frustrating. It's like people are expecting you to either get better on your own or just do it already and drop dead. I talk about it all the time with close friends but nobody cares anymore. I am so tired

 

[Realog11]

I'm not sure, I'll be moving soon but I have prepped up preparations for hanging.. but since I'll have more access to stuff like SNS than I'll probably do just that.

Thank you, it is so so hard. And to even try and make yourself understandable is even harder. My disorders reslly kill any attempts made

They had given up even before my grades slipped. It's just.. so frustrating. It's like people are expecting you to either get better on your own or just do it already and drop dead. I talk about it all the time with close friends but nobody cares anymore. I am so tired

What's sns