When nearly 8 billion people still living, why should I have to die?

[Navneel]

When nearly 8 billion people still living, why should I have to die? What was my mortal sin?

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Why do you think you have to die?

 

[Navneel]

Why do you think you have to die?

There is no other way. It feels that I'm living in the high capital of Hell. Death remains only savour only who can break the wall of this hell-prison.

 

[FreedomInDeath]

There are a lot of suffering people who just choose not to die. I stopped being angry at feeling like I have to CTB to realizing it is a choice I decide everytime I want to end it, and my choice I have not. Life is hell for many people lets be honest.

 

[tothemoon]

I understand how you feel. Just realize hundreds of millions of people suffer badly. In fact over history BILLIONS have suffered. It's unfortunate but this is what happened. Just realize we are not unique.

 

[Thebuddhacel]

A lot of people dying everyday, why should I live?

 

[Navneel]

A lot of people dying everyday, why should I live?

I don't want to live either. In fact feeling intense guilty for still living. I wish there could exist someone like God, and he grants me two options to pick : either to live sucesfully or die successfully. I would be realy content to choose any of the option.

 

[Sunshine]

Nothing really. A miracle I guess that would fundamentally change my brain into a different person?

I just don't really enjoy anything and I'm not interested in what life has to offer. Traveling, games, people, it's all kind of repetitive and pointless even if you're rich and beautiful. Not to say I am rich or beautiful, I'm not, but I wouldn't be happy if I was either.

 

[Navneel]

I understand how you feel. Just realize hundreds of millions of people suffer badly. In fact over history BILLIONS have suffered. It's unfortunate but this is what happened. Just realize we are not unique.

Nothing really. A miracle I guess that would fundamentally change my brain into a different person?

I just don't really enjoy anything and I'm not interested in what life has to offer. Traveling, games, people, it's all kind of repetitive and pointless even if you're rich and beautiful. Not to say I am rich or beautiful, I'm not, but I wouldn't be happy if I was either.

I suspect that you are a eminent practitioner of telepathy! Cause you spoke the same words as mine, you wished the same as I wish, you reflected the same feelings as I used to feel. Truth to be spoken, I lived so many days with intense suffering and despair but with also a mild hope, that maybe someday by the grace of any miracle, the insane chemicals in my brain will start to function properly. I hoped that I'll be able to live as I lived in my early childhood; when I was able to live in my own terms, when good, god, beauty, butterfly ....all this words were meaningful to me, when I was the sole dictator of my mind-kingdom. But now, if the people of USA appoint me as their next President, if Nobel comitee proclaim my name as the next recipient, if all the beautiful girls in the world make an oath to sleep at least one night with me, it ain't making any difference to me. Nothing can solace me here, nobody can please me here.

 

[Sunshine]

I suspect that you are a eminent practitioner of telepathy! Cause you spoke the same words as mine, you wished the same as I wish, you reflected the same feelings as I used to feel. Truth to be spoken, I lived so many days with intense suffering and despair but with also a mild hope, that maybe someday by the grace of any miracle, the insane chemicals in my brain will start to function properly. I hoped that I'll be able to live as I lived in my early childhood; when I was able to live in my own terms, when good, god, beauty, butterfly ....all this words were meaningful to me, when I was the sole dictator of my mind-kingdom. But now, if the people of USA appoint me as their next President, if Nobel comitee proclaim my name as the next recipient, if all the beautiful girls in the world make an oath to sleep at least one night with me, it ain't making any difference to me. Nothing can solace me here, nobody can please me here.

Yeah. The corruption has seeped so deeply into our beings and minds that it just left us incapable to enjoy life for what it is. I hope we will get our miracle, but I don't think it's likely at all. I wish we could be saved but it just seems so bleak.