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bloomingdark

bloomingdark

Alex
Jan 24, 2019
170
Most of the times i am dreaming awake , and that's something I got used to even if it's annoying af, but even though I do those "normal" days i can difference world from a dream, some days y truly don't, i feel so dissociated and everything feels so surreal that i end up thinking is nothing but a dream or a nightmare , depending of how good or bad are the things happening, i generally fear being alone because of that, nobody can remember me if i am dreaming or not, i think psychosis left me a little bit off with that .

Have you experienced the same?
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
I can relate so much to your words, dear.

I've come to a point in which I can't distinguish dreams for reality anymore.
 
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BandAddict

BandAddict

Specialist
Apr 3, 2019
338
Yes, I have. I dissociated for about a month or so one time. Every day I kept forgetting where I was and what the hell was going on. I mostly sat in one spot all day because I couldn't get my head together. Mental illness and malnutrition, I guess.

The most intense experiences like this often come when I have extreme mood swings or something happens that I can't cope with. I've had to ask my sibling before if things were actually happening because I couldn't accept that nightmare.
 
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killedbypsychiatry

killedbypsychiatry

drugging kids is abuse
Jan 27, 2021
797
I have been in a constant state of derealization for a year, as a result of an adverse reaction to psychiatric drugs. It's awful. I no longer go out because it's scary.
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
This is hardly a novel insight, but who the hell knows what's reality & what's an illusion/dream? Life's a big, messy mindfuck & nobody truly understands what's going on
 
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Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
I've been in a in and out state of reality for years. The worse bit about the whole experience is that the dreams become so real that when I rejoin reality I'm more sad over it
 
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