“When I discover who I am, I’ll be free.”

[CTB Fella]

Hello all.

New on here.

I write and collect quotes, and the one I used in this thread's title really is how I feel.

Having the Devil's diagnosis (EUPD/BPD) leaves me feeling completely empty, yet full of "nothing" at the same time.

I truly do not know who, or what I am anymore.

I've attempted to take my life so, so many times. I've come f*****g close, a few times, but alas, I'm still here.

I have enough of my chosen medication to make another serious attempt, and I'm just sitting on the feeling. I tend to fail because I make some kind of "alert" or warning, when in the mix. You know us lot with EUPD/BPD … we just get too excited, when in the moment.

Anyway, just thought I'd introduce myself.

I'm here, if anyone feels like having a chat.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds horrific to me failing ctb especially so many times. I certainly do hate the fact that it can be so difficult to die, but I'm sorry that you suffer. Existing really can be torture for so many in this world.

 

[MideonNViscera]

I Googled EUPD, but I have a question. Doesn't BPD pretty much cover the EUPD part? It sounds redundant.
Not trying to be a smartass, I am genuinely curious.

 

[CTB Fella]

I Googled EUPD, but I have a question. Doesn't BPD pretty much cover the EUPD part? It sounds redundant.
Not trying to be a smartass, I am genuinely curious.

They renamed it, from BPD to EUPD.

They felt that BPD was too harsh a title.

 

[Soulless Angel]

They renamed it, from BPD to EUPD.

They felt that BPD was too harsh a title.

Both are shite titles!! and mention EUPD they get confused!! I have EUPD... BPD is easier to state!!