When I am angry I am less suicidal

[c824767]

Other than that anger is not helpful. It destroys every little thing, every little joy I might have, every little task I could do in my house or anywhere. The only thing that gives me joy is stealing from stores. I feel so blatantly destructive and wanting to damage others, so that I can stop thinking about self-destruction. Who else feels like this ? and what are you angry about and how do you deal with it?

 

[Azzy69]

Kinda a different scenario here, but still, I see where you are coming from...
I am angry with my family most of the time. I am almost 19 and at home and unable to work. Obviously I don't pay rent, but they give me a bunch of cleaning to do each weekend. It pisses me off when my Step-father keeps asking me to help him move things around when I just want to sit down and rest - resulting in me destroying their property. Due to this I'm usually just irritable and pissed off all the time, and probably not great company either.

 

[c824767]

Kinda a different scenario here, but still, I see where you are coming from...
I am angry with my family most of the time. I am almost 19 and at home and unable to work. Obviously I don't pay rent, but they give me a bunch of cleaning to do each weekend. It pisses me off when my Step-father keeps asking me to help him move things around when I just want to sit down and rest - resulting in me destroying their property. Due to this I'm usually just irritable and pissed off all the time, and probably not great company either.

Omg they will want suicide trying to deal with you will get to them

 

[Manja]

Yeah when I get angry I get homicidal...but I'm too lazy and passive for that and also I have a great self control in expressing anger...if it wasn't for that I would probably be a serial killer...I deal with it by turning it inside and then hating myself instead bc I'm such a fuckup incapable of doing anything and that's where I become suicidal I guess

 

[c824767]

I would love to use my anger to confront the 25 richest people on Earth, and rip away their wealth to pay every single human being on earth that is below the poverty line, the amount of money (monthly) they need to survive comfortably or permit them assisted death if they do not want to live as the lowest person on the totem pole any longer. Among the 25 richest people there are 3 women who received their money by way of divorce/inheritance. I will try to send them all emails to see if they will help me advocate for assisted death for frustrated individuals who hate their lives and feel nothing but torture during their human existence.

 

[Mizzmini45]

I would love to use my anger to confront the 25 richest people on Earth, and rip away their wealth to pay every single human being on earth that is below the poverty line, the amount of money (monthly) they need to survive comfortably or permit them assisted death if they do not want to live as the lowest person on the totem pole any longer. Among the 25 richest people there are 3 women who received their money by way of divorce/inheritance. I will try to send them all emails to see if they will help me advocate for assisted death for frustrated individuals who hate their lives and feel nothing but torture during their human existence.

I AGREE!!

 

[Moonicide]

It's the opposite for me. I become the most suicidal when I am angry. It leads to me becoming very impulsive which leads to me wanting to ctb on the spot. I tend to internalize everything so when I am angry I want to kill myself. I don't have this intense desire to kill or harm others, only myself.

 

[Mizzmini45]

It's the opposite for me. I become the most suicidal when I am angry. It leads to me becoming very impulsive which leads to me wanting to ctb on the spot. I tend to internalize everything so when I am angry I want to kill myself. I don't have this intense desire to kill or harm others, only myself.

I'm like that to.

 

[1DayItWillBover]

When im full on blown angry it kind of gives me a purpose. I used it as motivation and i feel like i could do anything. When im angry, hurting myself goes out the window and hurting others is what comes to my mind. Then i come back down and i sometimes break down for acting like such a piece of shit. Then thoughts of ending it all come back. Then repeat a few days later.

 

[WingedFallen]

I definitely relate. Anger is like an insidious drug for me, and probably my biggest personal demon and source of regret. I don't steal from stores but I have had the desire to destroy, to hurt, to kill. That last I don't know if I could do (unless it was a Nazi, Nazis are always the exception). I worked in a department store before and would destroy merchandise when no one was looking when I was angry sometimes. It is oddly cathartic in a way because I don't feel sad or anxious when I'm mad, and I usually feel oddly empowered, but I hate it because of its consequences and what it is likely doing to my heart. I don't like how I feel after I calm down either. Usually the crushing weight of the regret of awful things I said or did while in the grips of rage far outweighs any of the positive feelings that might have been there moments before.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

For me it's the opposite, intense anger only increases my suicidal thoughts. I become very toxic and destructive but thankfully I can still control myself enough not to be downright abusive to others.

 

[Sensei]

Maybe there's a rage room near you? It may seem silly, but I would have given it serious consideration if I had one nearby. It's not for free, though. If you have an empty room, I guess you can make an own one.