ashfall
Member
- Jan 1, 2022
- 47
I've tried so hard to get better and I keep waiting for the day life gets easier but it doesn't. Every single day is a struggle. Absolutely nothing is easy for me yes compared to 99% of planet earth my "workload" is laughable. I live with my parents, I don't have a job or cook, I only do basic chores and go for a walk with the dog every other day. It's literally nothing but I'm floundering. I've been trying so so hard to fix myself but nothing is working. I'm fostering kittens, attending group wellness meetings twice a week, seeing a therapist, taking all my meds and taking art and creative writing night classes but nothing is helping. It just all seems like too much and I'm so overwhelmed and I just can't take it for much longer.
My therapist keeps going on about how routine is important and that it'll get easier with time but it's been months and it's not getting any easier. Instead, I feel like I'm close to a breaking point. I've to give back the kittens in a couple of weeks and even though I keep trying I can't imagine living beyond it. I'm just so done. Every single day is a struggle. I feel like I can't breathe. I can't do it anymore.
I've honestly forgotten why I ever thought things would get better.
My therapist keeps going on about how routine is important and that it'll get easier with time but it's been months and it's not getting any easier. Instead, I feel like I'm close to a breaking point. I've to give back the kittens in a couple of weeks and even though I keep trying I can't imagine living beyond it. I'm just so done. Every single day is a struggle. I feel like I can't breathe. I can't do it anymore.
I've honestly forgotten why I ever thought things would get better.