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bestroper

bestroper

Student
Feb 18, 2023
102
I will be out in 2-3 years. I want to do CTB right now, but there are too many things to prepare. Right place at right time. I need that
 
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ramon

ramon

Student
Aug 10, 2024
164
So maybe this won't help you much, but here goes:

Late 2022: The accumulation of many life disappointments make me become agnostic, quit any long term projects, and decide to plan on CTB.
2023: I plan one last backpacking trip involving a bunch of developing countries.
Early 2024: On second though, my inner demons and my past mistakes will chase me anywhere I go. The trip is cancelled.
Late 2024: Gathering enough money and whaterever courage I can scrape from within to CTB on 2025.

P.S: I'm set on the N2 way, therefore the need for money
 
Ww42

Ww42

Experienced
Feb 24, 2024
291
I plan for this sunday. I've got a rope, a reliabel suspension to hold my weight, and noone who will find me within an hour. I'm going to attempt a full-suspension hanging this sunday while getting close to blackout drunk. I'll probably make a final goodbye to this community post with a picture of the rope to see if anyone has any helpful criticisms on if it will work, but I'm pretty confident it will work
 
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Jon Arbuckle

Jon Arbuckle

Aspiring Corpse
Jul 23, 2024
121
I will be out in 2-3 years. I want to do CTB right now, but there are too many things to prepare. Right place at right time. I need that
if all goes according to plan, sometime before the end of 2024.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
Depends on how well getting my license and then mustering the courage to go buy a gun goes. I'm praying I can CTB before finals… Or even better, before midterms. I know I could ace them if I locked in or wtv but I just don't want to do it, y'know?

But given my current pace of practicing before midterms is very unlikely.

Best case scenario- <5 months.
Optimistically- 5-8 months, before finals.
Realistically- 9 months to a year.
Pessimistically- Year and a half to 2 years.
Worst case scenario- >2 years.
 
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Ww42

Ww42

Experienced
Feb 24, 2024
291
Depends on how well getting my license and then mustering the courage to go buy a gun goes. I'm praying I can CTB before finals… Or even better, before midterms. I know I could ace them if I locked in or wtv but I just don't want to do it, y'know?

But given my current pace of practicing before midterms is very unlikely.

Best case scenario- <5 months.
Optimistically- 5-8 months, before finals.
Realistically- 9 months to a year.
Pessimistically- Year and a half to 2 years.
Worst case scenario- >2 years.
School is so fucking hard when depressed and not seeing a future for yourself. I get that feeling. Locking in would solve the problems but locking in requires us to lock into the act of locking in which just seems useless
 
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3/4Dead

3/4Dead

Peace, Love, Empathy
Feb 27, 2024
461
next year on my birthday
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
I plan to CTB on my birthday, which is Oct/2nd.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
School is so fucking hard when depressed and not seeing a future for yourself. I get that feeling. Locking in would solve the problems but locking in requires us to lock into the act of locking in which just seems useless
Yeah. it's gonna be hard once it goes from "just boring" to "overtly stressful" in a month or so. I did some online college classes last year (concurrent enrollment) so I know what I'm in for. Though on the bright side a bit less time alone with my thoughts would be a nice distraction.

Also I'm unfortunately starting to get scared about driving; more specifically failing my driver's test. If I fail it, I won't get to die in the place I want- it's a three hour drive away- and I'm not 100% a driver's permit will be ok to get a gun. I'm like 80% sure, but I don't want to fuck this up.

Thankfully there's a gun shop within an hours walk of my house, so if all goes to hell I can just try going there one day with some cash and the permit and then shoot myself someplace less pretty. that's reassuring, at least.

I'm going to go on a test walk right now, actually. Maybe it'll scare me less actually going in the shop one day if I'm more familiar with the area.

edit: nvm it started raining lol
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,911
Hopefully by the end of the year
 
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samdocheon

samdocheon

Optimists are wrong
Jul 28, 2024
123
Tomorrow in the day
 
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pariah80

Arcanist
Aug 12, 2024
404
Tonight at 10pm.
 
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SeekingRelief

SeekingRelief

Member
Aug 16, 2024
20
As soon as possible. Right now, I'm trying to figure out where to order SN from. The moment I get it shipped to me and it arrives will be the moment I CTB.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,612
In my case I know I'd be long gone if I had the means to eternally find peace from this existence so painful and undesirable that only ever caused me to suffer. I really wish I had the option of a death like never waking again, I only wish to never exist again.
 
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blueberryDesert

blueberryDesert

Member
Jul 23, 2024
18
Before the last month of 2024. I already have the specific date in mind and am working on getting everything together and disposing of most of my things.
 
bFre3

bFre3

Member
Apr 8, 2024
83
Sometime during the next 1.5 years. Could be tomorrow, could be Christmas, could be next yeat.

I want to go soon.
 
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CandyCane

CandyCane

Student
Mar 11, 2022
156
I don't know. I feel so many responsibilities, but I'm tired of being sick.
 
Sappy Sandpiper

Sappy Sandpiper

New Member
Aug 10, 2024
2
When my method expires… which was 6 months ago. I'm not so sure what I'm still doing here.
 
SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Nothing Like The Looks « ❤️‍🩹 »
Nov 13, 2023
582
I want to live a little more to see how things are, although due to the amount of the pain I live in this is just a gamble, I'm a joke. Priority number one is to secure a way out, then from there I'll sort the rest.
 
nattanatta

nattanatta

Member
Aug 13, 2024
35
Unless things start to get significantly (miraculously) better in the very near future, I'm not making it to 2025.
 
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girlsboysthems

girlsboysthems

no i dont have a gun
Dec 19, 2022
456
probably early 2025, i hope it happens
 
BecomingTired

BecomingTired

Lov3rBoy<3
Feb 23, 2024
141
Thought I recovered but I'm just spiraling down again in all honesty. I'm gonna try another attempt around late September or early October if nothing else works.
 
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Ww42

Ww42

Experienced
Feb 24, 2024
291
Yeah. it's gonna be hard once it goes from "just boring" to "overtly stressful" in a month or so. I did some online college classes last year (concurrent enrollment) so I know what I'm in for. Though on the bright side a bit less time alone with my thoughts would be a nice distraction.

Also I'm unfortunately starting to get scared about driving; more specifically failing my driver's test. If I fail it, I won't get to die in the place I want- it's a three hour drive away- and I'm not 100% a driver's permit will be ok to get a gun. I'm like 80% sure, but I don't want to fuck this up.

Thankfully there's a gun shop within an hours walk of my house, so if all goes to hell I can just try going there one day with some cash and the permit and then shoot myself someplace less pretty. that's reassuring, at least.

I'm going to go on a test walk right now, actually. Maybe it'll scare me less actually going in the shop one day if I'm more familiar with the area.

edit: nvm it started raining lol
I don't think you even need a license in some states for buying a gun, they will be doing a background check though, so if you've ever been sectioned you wont be able to get a gun from a non-private gun store. And don't try to lie on those checks either, they'll find out and you'll get a felony charge.
 
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hauntyoueveryday

hauntyoueveryday

Member
Jun 15, 2024
59
Uhh probably sometime either before I start school (if everything works out perfectly lmao) but definitely some time before 2025 starts
 
sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
I don't think you even need a license in some states for buying a gun, they will be doing a background check though, so if you've ever been sectioned you wont be able to get a gun from a non-private gun store. And don't try to lie on those checks either, they'll find out and you'll get a felony charge.
Yep, that's what I've read. I'm in one of the most red states (think midwest) and the internet says I don't need a license. Still, I'm a little antsy about it.

No criminal or mental history, so hopefully no issues there. I won't lie no worries
 
ImUsedToIt

ImUsedToIt

New Member
May 13, 2024
3
sometime within the next 2 months
 
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deletedaccount30982

Illuminated
Mar 10, 2020
3,430
13 days if all goes to plan. If the pharmacy gets delayed refilling my prescription my back up is the following Friday.
 
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noname37

Student
Sep 10, 2024
100
was gonna do it a few months ago but I gave away my SN like an absolute idiot. needlessly to say the thoughts are back more than ever and it's on my mind 24/7. hopefully it happens soon
 

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